update
I know its been a long time, and I have been dealin with a lot. I was told to write it all out, but I always hold in my pain. So many people around me are leaving me or die. I have lost too many people in my life. my grandfather, my cuz, my sister, my uncle, and my son. I dont know if I can hold on. I feel that I am going to break down. I am scared of who else will leave or die.
I also made the biggest and I mean biggest mistake in my life, and I am still kickin myself for it. I broke up with the greatest man I ever met. So far in my life he was the only one I could see myself with. At times I wish I went after him when he got on that plane. I try to move on, but its hard! I am telling everyone if you love someone tell them and show them every second you can, cause you never know when that might end. I still never forget the times we spent together, and I will always have those memories near to my heart.
I wish I could be a kid again. Playin hide and go seek. I miss those times. :giggle: now I just have to start all over, and find the strength. I know I will be okay, its just hard, I just wish I still had my people with me, the ones I care for and they care about me.
I also made the biggest and I mean biggest mistake in my life, and I am still kickin myself for it. I broke up with the greatest man I ever met. So far in my life he was the only one I could see myself with. At times I wish I went after him when he got on that plane. I try to move on, but its hard! I am telling everyone if you love someone tell them and show them every second you can, cause you never know when that might end. I still never forget the times we spent together, and I will always have those memories near to my heart.
I wish I could be a kid again. Playin hide and go seek. I miss those times. :giggle: now I just have to start all over, and find the strength. I know I will be okay, its just hard, I just wish I still had my people with me, the ones I care for and they care about me.