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It's like my soul has died...I've been heart broken before but this feels different...this feels wrong...so very wrong.
I met a psychic who told me I would meet a dark eyed, dark haired boy with the initials J.D. and he would be the one for marriage and children when I was a sophmore in college...and every fiber of my being is screaming at me to reach out and grab what I cannot hold onto.
I've dreamed of his grand father telling me not to lose him...
My mother and everyone I know says this is for the best...that what was done was the right thing and we'll both be happier...but everything I am tells me it isn't so. I know you all think we'll be better off but I've never been so sure of anything in my life...this isn't the way this was suppossed to go...it isn't the way it's suppossed to be.
No one will hear me no matter how loud I scream that something dreadful has been done. I won't get over this in time...you don't get over the loss of your soul mate...it kills you inside...it's killing me.
No amount of time with good friends...nights out...shopping...drinking...nothing is going to fix this until I have my baby back home. Do I sound obsessive? Yes. Someone once told me that when you find something worth living for hold on and never let go because it doesn't happen often. John was my something...John is my something.
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Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before...
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I'm loving you more and more
Listen to my heart can you hear it sing
Come back to me...and forgive everything!
Seasons may change
Winter to Spring
But I love you...until the end of time.
I met a psychic who told me I would meet a dark eyed, dark haired boy with the initials J.D. and he would be the one for marriage and children when I was a sophmore in college...and every fiber of my being is screaming at me to reach out and grab what I cannot hold onto.
I've dreamed of his grand father telling me not to lose him...
My mother and everyone I know says this is for the best...that what was done was the right thing and we'll both be happier...but everything I am tells me it isn't so. I know you all think we'll be better off but I've never been so sure of anything in my life...this isn't the way this was suppossed to go...it isn't the way it's suppossed to be.
No one will hear me no matter how loud I scream that something dreadful has been done. I won't get over this in time...you don't get over the loss of your soul mate...it kills you inside...it's killing me.
No amount of time with good friends...nights out...shopping...drinking...nothing is going to fix this until I have my baby back home. Do I sound obsessive? Yes. Someone once told me that when you find something worth living for hold on and never let go because it doesn't happen often. John was my something...John is my something.
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Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before...
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I'm loving you more and more
Listen to my heart can you hear it sing
Come back to me...and forgive everything!
Seasons may change
Winter to Spring
But I love you...until the end of time.