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im falling apart. im disorganized and disoriented and i need to focus on school. i feel like giving up...like im burnt out...like i cant do this anymore. i hate this...there's too many things to think and worry about. just when i think everythings going great...everything falls apart. i just have to focus more...and prioritize. i cant give up now...im almost done...i cant wait till i graduate. but then what? i guess i'll deal with that when it comes along.
i had a lot of fun at the ehab tawfiq/mai harriri concert i went to on saturday. i danced and talked to people and had fun. good times. maybe that's why im crashing now...bad days always follow good days. the better the good day the worse the bad days. fucking sux.
im gonna be reading a shitload of shit tonight. gotta work on a presentation tomorrow that's due thursday. have a test monday. and i cant be late or miss anymore classes. fucking sucks. im starting to really fucking hate school. im so aggrivated and depressed right now...im gonna go hide out somewhere and read. and then lock myself in my room when i get home and read some more. im such a moron...i dig my own grave and then shoot myself. im completely useless.
hopefully i feel better tomorrow. i cant break down now...i have too much shit to do. fuck me. alright laters.