I really dont know ?

[angeceleste]

I think one of the reasons I enjoyed high school so much was because of the people I was around. I was around the type of people that success was excepted of you by your family and nothing less of success would do. I was around the type of people that came from prominent families and they could do nothing less but to turn into someone worth being held up in higher light. I was around so many positive attitudes toward succeding. I thought it would be like that in College, but to my surprise its not. I came to college with a goal; to complete it the best I can and to attend a really good law school. I see the people around me and it just seem like they have given up and its only freshmen year. Its common to hear "oh if i pass that i will be happy". When did people start taking medicore grades for being ok? Maybe its just me...I have a thurst for knowledge and I am willing to work to the death to succeed. I do not understand why some people do so great in high school and have these high expactions for themselves, only to come to college and let them fall by the wayside. Competition in todays world is picking up so fast. You know my dad told me that going to college is like going to high school now, you can hardly find a decent job with Bachelors degree...you have to go further and make yourself standout from your counterparts; you have to mareket yourself. You know the more and more I think about it, I realize how much my dad is right. You have to market yourself, you have to go to grad school, med school, or law school. Its simply not enough to go to college anymore; thats expected out of everyone in todays society. I am only know realizing that not everyone has led the privlidge lifestyle that I have, although at the time I would hardly have called it priviledged. Maybe its different for me being an African American student. I carry the expactions of my race. If I fail thats just another statistic being added to the list. And in high school i prided myself of not being another statistic. I feel as though it is my duty to succeed in life, for myself as well as for those who did not have the opportunity to succeed. Some times you have to take yourself out of the equation and do whats right for the common good of society. For those of us still in college remember when you look at the empty seat next you in class, that someone who cant afford to go to college is counting on you to do the best that you can do...because you have the opportunity that they did not have...You have been given that opportunity. Those of you reading may think that the only success I am talking about is money, but its not. My definition of success included a good education, a good job, a happy family, and the self-satisfaction that I worked hard to obtain it. Of course I would be lying if I said that money did not factor into my definition of success. I will even be Bold enough to say that it is a huge part of my definition of success,but thats just me. I have grown up knowing the luxuries that money can buy, and I have grown up realizing all the problems money can cause especailly when its not there anymore. I dont want to run into those problems along the way. I have friend at Furman University that says "I constantly have to remind myself everyday of why attended Furman University.." I think to myself I always have to remind myself of why I am attending college and why i am working so hard. I admit it is not easy by no means. I am with faults also. I have those days when i just do not want to attend class and make up every excuse in the book not to attend...but I eventually drag myself into going and am quite happy i do after its all over with.

Ok I am through with my rambling for know. Just had to let it all out.