Demons in human frames, bright essentialist blue and bleach artificial blonde overwriting earthy brunette. A demon with a tiny shard of human in her, a demon with a lot of human in him. Light and shadow. Illyria beating the spark back out of Spike as best she can, because she needs to prove the inevitable, crushing frailty of the human form, that it means nothing to her, that William is dead and weak and so must be Fred. The form of the first woman since Buffy for Spike to sacrifice for is sending hurtling back down the latter, setting him up for the fall
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AH YES INDEED. So pleased you get it (and me). Beyond pleased. <3
And of course the irony is that Illyria can't beat the spark out of Spike because beating him down only makes him feel more alive.
And yes, as I was writing this, I kept flashing to how Illyria is like the extreme version of Buffy in a way. So isn't it interesting how Spike reverts to form in becoming attached first to Fred, then to the inhuman powerful being that takes Fred over and dominates him like mad. Girl:Slayer -- only even more divided. And how bizarre that Spike feels safer with the Illyria/Slayer than he does with the real Girl. There's ~rules~ he understands, he can fight and dance, and play the part -- and he'll figure her out from how she dances with him, how she hurts him.
So sorry to be late replying to this - because, wow! Very dark, but I love the imagery and the illusion of control you overlay onto Spike's out of control feelings.
Ta! I hope you enjoyed and didn't mind the darkness too much. (I tend to view Spike and Illyria darkly, yeah.)
I was going for a parallel between their shifting performative natures, too, but I'm not sure that came together the way I wished it did. Just, forever changing their surface, only she's got more control than he does -- both seeking to rediscover their humanity, only he feels most alive while fighting as it forces him to feel a sense of mortality where as she "wishes to do more violence" to escape from feeling vulnerable since the act of domination makes her feel invincible.
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And of course the irony is that Illyria can't beat the spark out of Spike because beating him down only makes him feel more alive.
And yes, as I was writing this, I kept flashing to how Illyria is like the extreme version of Buffy in a way. So isn't it interesting how Spike reverts to form in becoming attached first to Fred, then to the inhuman powerful being that takes Fred over and dominates him like mad. Girl:Slayer -- only even more divided. And how bizarre that Spike feels safer with the Illyria/Slayer than he does with the real Girl. There's ~rules~ he understands, he can fight and dance, and play the part -- and he'll figure her out from how she dances with him, how she hurts him.
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I was going for a parallel between their shifting performative natures, too, but I'm not sure that came together the way I wished it did. Just, forever changing their surface, only she's got more control than he does -- both seeking to rediscover their humanity, only he feels most alive while fighting as it forces him to feel a sense of mortality where as she "wishes to do more violence" to escape from feeling vulnerable since the act of domination makes her feel invincible.
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