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Alright so lately there has been a lot of shit going on in my head and I thought it would be best to put it out and see if I can make some sense of it. First off is my friends. This summer has just really threw my friendships with many people out of wack and I find that a few people that I was really close to I no longer am because they are mad at me for no apparent reason or just feel like something has died in the friendship. Three of my best friends are currently in or are going to San Antonio for school this semester and the two that are still here work like motherfuckers and when they are off are with their girlfriends. It makes me miss having a relationship and that companionship but I feel like I look for something to be wrong with a girl that I'm interested in as if I'm talking myself out of pursuing someone. I don't know but I've been missing that lately. So I don't confuse anyone I was supposed to leave to San Antonio at the end of this month but shits not right at my mom's and I'ma have to visit her for a while. So now I'm in El Paso for another semester at least. In a way its good that my friends will be busy or away so that way I won't get sidetracked with partying because I really want to focus on school and get that part of my life moving again. I fucked up bad in the past and really set myself back. Now I want to try to fix it. I know that definately has affected why I havene't left El Paso yet. There is so much more that is going through my mind but I don't think anyone wants to hear it but I just wanted to get this out. On a happier note, I saw AI Solar, previously Nightshade for you Montwood people, and they fuckin rocked. I highly recommend that you check them out sometime. They have a myspace thing too. Well if you took stime to read this sorry its so long. See you all on the flipside. haha thats so cheesy. I'm out.