Jul 08, 2008 21:12
sweating problem .. i put tissue in my shirt. under my armpit.
in front of class picture for my training class they told me to get down in front, of course i had to roll around like an idiot and the t paper fell out of my
shirt.
try to explain THAT
ok ok so heres the situation..
i think we're all going through a quarter life crisis.
i dont ever want to leave tacoma. then i want to move anywhere.
i hate the phone but i love the people in it.
heres the thing with the phone
in person being awkward is so much more comfortable than over the phone.
i'm so good at being a bad friend. i do hate that. i dont enjoy it. just know that.
i want to sell my car, i want to quit my job when i'm not there and my pookster bear moved away last week and i'm severly depressed because of her moving. i'm drained from not having passion i dont even have the tinyest.. ((sp..elling...?)) passion to chase after any sort of passion. YI!
and to find ohhh to find the meaning of the cross and UNDERSTAND it and to actually live on "that side" instead of giving sin so MUCH control over my life but not abusing GRACE and understanding i will never be perfect but that doesnt excuse my addictions and temptations and ohhh goodness this can sometimes get so tricky!
and this distance between us.. i dont understand how people can live everyday like this. iiiiiiii
refuse.
the horror of life sometimes.