Life
It's been awhile since I've actually wrote something meaning anything. Life's been crazy. I've been at a lot of lows even though I don't look like it. I seem happy don't I? If you are around me....I look fine. I wish I was. I've been through so much this past year. It's so hard dealing with this ups and downs. Schools driving me nuts. I have such a long road ahead of me. If I'm having trouble now, then what's medical school going to be like? All I know is this is what I want to do and I'll sacrafice everything to do it. Lose friends, lose my life, I'll lose boyfriends...whatever. I need to get to where I want to be. This semester has been nuts. Friends...I don't even know where to start. I don't know whats wrong, but hopefully I'll figure it out soon. I just haven't had time to talk to them and I hope they don't think I'm ignoring them. I'm way too effing busy. On top of taking 16 hrs this semester, I have to spend 6 hrs in a lab for my research so that takes up so much of my time. *sigh* I guess i'm gonna have to cry...I guess I'm gonna have to give up things that I love to get to the other side.....I just gotta say goodbye....:-/
There's a new me this year. '06 is mine. I'm gonna take it and run with it. I've made lots of changes to myself. Things I didn't like before, I've changed a lot. I know who my true friends are. I know they look after me. I got my great grandmother up above watching me. I miss my family. I'm going home tomorrow. I can't wait to see my dad, mom, and of course my sister. I'm so glad I'm close with her.
There's a lot I need to change. Maybe moving to UM or UCF or something. I don't know, but we'll see. Already know if I stay at FSU I'm moving into an apartment with Kara next year. That's exciting.
I'm sitting in my room. It's 10:30. I'm alone and so many thoughts are running through my head. I just wanna escape. Is that even possible? I think I'm just misunderstood. I need to show waht I'm feeling. This whole nice hiding approach...I'm getting all walked over. I don't like it. I'm sick of that. My time
THat's it for right now.
-Preya
btw...theres a guy that i've known forever and he's been there through thick and thin but i think of him as a friend always but now that I think about it...am I suppose to date him because he's right under me and I never would ever think of dating him...I don't know...I haven' quite figured him out yet...do I take it if that's what he wants? Feedback pleaseeeee
There's a new me this year. '06 is mine. I'm gonna take it and run with it. I've made lots of changes to myself. Things I didn't like before, I've changed a lot. I know who my true friends are. I know they look after me. I got my great grandmother up above watching me. I miss my family. I'm going home tomorrow. I can't wait to see my dad, mom, and of course my sister. I'm so glad I'm close with her.
There's a lot I need to change. Maybe moving to UM or UCF or something. I don't know, but we'll see. Already know if I stay at FSU I'm moving into an apartment with Kara next year. That's exciting.
I'm sitting in my room. It's 10:30. I'm alone and so many thoughts are running through my head. I just wanna escape. Is that even possible? I think I'm just misunderstood. I need to show waht I'm feeling. This whole nice hiding approach...I'm getting all walked over. I don't like it. I'm sick of that. My time
THat's it for right now.
-Preya
btw...theres a guy that i've known forever and he's been there through thick and thin but i think of him as a friend always but now that I think about it...am I suppose to date him because he's right under me and I never would ever think of dating him...I don't know...I haven' quite figured him out yet...do I take it if that's what he wants? Feedback pleaseeeee