ahhh wtf

[anfbballloser]

So it's 12 the next day and I'm still not feeling better. I just don't understand what's wrong. I can't shake it off. Flashbacks are HORRIBLE cause they keep you in the most akward mood ever. I went out yesterday hoping to shake everything off. Went with Christina, Kara, and Brendon with their UF Bishop Moore friends out to a Kappa Sig party out at Andrew's. Well I thought I could just drink away the problems and everythin will be okay. I had 3 beers and I just stopped. It wasn't helping. I still felt like shit and I know when I can't drink it out then something is just really wrong with me. So I asked Andrew to drop me back off at my dorm. Who the fuck leaves early...ahhh I just wish I could of felt better. I even came back and watched a movie. I got on the phone with Chris but he was drunk and all he could say was he loved me like any other drunk person and said he wanted to kick some people's ass at FSU. That's not exactly what I wanted to hear....I don't want to be mad at anyone and I don't think I am. I'm just mad at the idea or what was said to me and memories from senior year aren't that fun. I tried to talk to Chris and get off the phone with him but he wouldn't let me so his drunk ass talked to me for a little bit. Finally his brother took the phone and said he'll tell him to call me tommorrow. *sigh* I finally fell asleep and was hoping when I woke up I wouldn't feel like shit, but here I am just as I rolled out of bed feeling terrible... :-/

Guess I should shower and pray for a better afternoon/night

and if I don't start feeling better with this cold I'm going to punch someone!!!! 3 effing weeks...give me a break