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I was looking through some of the poems and stuff i had written in the past. its funny how shitty they are. its also kinda funny remembering how in love i was or thought i was. How we thought we would be together forever. at 16 and 15. haha.
I was thinking about past relationships, well i think about them a bit, and i feel like shit about a few of them. i had made some some big mistakes with them. i gave up on some girls that i shouldn't have and who deserved more.
Right now, Courtney seems very disinterested. part of me thinks that, the other part realizes that she has a lot on her plate and doesn't have time for things. it just sucks that i haven't seen here since thursday and have barely even talked to her since then. This is not turning out well so far. the fears that led me to hesitate are coming true. its not worrying me too much now, it just bums me out a little.
i need to find a job too. i hope my grades were good, i should check them. all in all things are not too bad but pointing down. i think that things will look up soon though.
I was thinking about past relationships, well i think about them a bit, and i feel like shit about a few of them. i had made some some big mistakes with them. i gave up on some girls that i shouldn't have and who deserved more.
Right now, Courtney seems very disinterested. part of me thinks that, the other part realizes that she has a lot on her plate and doesn't have time for things. it just sucks that i haven't seen here since thursday and have barely even talked to her since then. This is not turning out well so far. the fears that led me to hesitate are coming true. its not worrying me too much now, it just bums me out a little.
i need to find a job too. i hope my grades were good, i should check them. all in all things are not too bad but pointing down. i think that things will look up soon though.