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i don't want to change our situation. i really don't. i have so much fun when we're hanging out watching Killer Klowns from Outer Space or on the Q train to the aquarium at Coney Island. it's wonderful making a cave with a beanbag and figuring out how to make letters with our hands. he shares so many of my passions, be it music or sea lions or the little sound his air mattress makes when it pops back into place. he gets it. and we have a great time together. i wouldn't ruin this for anything. though it would be nice to make out a little. or a lot.
i had massive amounts of anxiety (which not eating and drinking a lot of caffiene did not help) thinking that i might have been too bold too soon and scared him off not only as a potential but as a friend. the one good thing that came out of it was that he realized he has to resolve things with the pseudo whatever she is. he also knows that i'm interested. but he didn't confront me like he told jill he was going to. (and now for the ANALYSIS...) i think this is a good thing. i think that he would have confronted me if he wanted to stop me from liking him, and not spent a majority of the weekend watching movies and/or aquatic life with only me. i think it's kind of encouraging. but what do i know?
ON A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT NOTE...
i absolutely love living with danielle. she's amazing and super sweet. sometimes she makes me food. right now she's showing me Purple Rain. this'll be a good semester.
i had massive amounts of anxiety (which not eating and drinking a lot of caffiene did not help) thinking that i might have been too bold too soon and scared him off not only as a potential but as a friend. the one good thing that came out of it was that he realized he has to resolve things with the pseudo whatever she is. he also knows that i'm interested. but he didn't confront me like he told jill he was going to. (and now for the ANALYSIS...) i think this is a good thing. i think that he would have confronted me if he wanted to stop me from liking him, and not spent a majority of the weekend watching movies and/or aquatic life with only me. i think it's kind of encouraging. but what do i know?
ON A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT NOTE...
i absolutely love living with danielle. she's amazing and super sweet. sometimes she makes me food. right now she's showing me Purple Rain. this'll be a good semester.