it'll all float off when the world stops turning around

[anewworldcalls]

i should be seeing a therapist because i have some serious problems. I'm trying, i'm trying really hard this time. I don't know why i can't just let him like me, why i have to find little things about him that annoy me. I'm fighting it, i really am. Because i really think i like this one. and it really might work out. it really might turn into something. It's just gone really fast, and in my mind there's got to be something wrong with someone who would like me.

I have realized that all the guys i've liked in the past, the "unatainable" ones, hell even Dave, are SAFE in their untainability.

(please don't respond with any "you're worth it" or "you're beautiful" or "you shouldn't hate yourself" comments. I have a complex, and I'm working on it. I just don't want to hear that kind of thing)