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I feel like im dead inside. Everything around me is changing and im not totally sure how to take it all. I feel like no one cares, or if they do its only minimal. I feel like i need to be held, but i also feel like i need to haul out and punch someone. All of my securites are vanishing and that feeling scares me. My sister got a job and is moving to North Carolina next weekend which makes me feel like i wont have a sister anymore. I like a boy that doesnt seem to have the same feelings for me, that makes me feel useless. In the past 3 days, everyone has canceled plans on me and that makes me feel like i am not fun to be around. My best friend didnt get me anything for my birthday which makes me feel like i am easily forgotten. I feel like i should cry, but i seem to have forgotten how. I dont know what to feel or how to feel. I want to feel love and companionship with someone again... Im just not sure whos going to give that to me.