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So Faith left which I was half glad and half not for because I mean getting having bonding type moments with Faith was just weird, not bad because she was surprisingly insightful but still weird. I mean she tried to kill my sister years ago and I wasn't so sure I'd ever be totally over that, even if Buffy was. Which good for her, I've never been that forigiving, except for with Spike but dont' ask me why. Still all in all Faith was cool, she helped me out and talked some sense into me. Which was good because I'm not 12 anymore and Buffy is not out to get me.
God I have to apologize to her for being such a bitch. I mean I'm a teenager and everything and I'm always going to have issues with Buffy, because she's my sister and when are there not issues? Anyways, I have to apologize because I feel really bad, Buffy's got enough on her plate and me being a brat? So not helping.
That said I also needed to find Anna cause my head still feels like it's going to explode and hopefully she's not feeling the same. Plus I need to make sure she doesn't think I do things like that all the time. Call it rebellion or whatever but getting drunk out of my mind and stealing cop cars? Not a regular Dawn type activity, I think she knows that but seeing as how she's like the best friend I have here she needs to know.
Plus Anna's like really cool and her friends, the older witches? They are so probably reeming her out and really it's a lot my fault and I feel bad that she's probably in a lot of trouble.
Bad thing about being here and being who I am? I have way too many people to be disappointed in me when I do stupid stuff. Cause you know that's the worst, being punished is nothing, who cares right? It's over after a week or a month or whatever but having people you respect disappointed in you? Like a punch to the gut. No fun. Which again is why me apologizing to Buffy is happening sometime like yesterday.
So I wanted to do all that, really I did, but with my head still pounding like you wouldn't believe I laid down. Anna would have to come back to the room sometime right? And Buffy was probably off fighting some big bad so if I just closed my eyes and drifted off that wouldn't technically being avoiding stuff would it?
Cause knowing you need to do things and actually doing them? Way different!
God I have to apologize to her for being such a bitch. I mean I'm a teenager and everything and I'm always going to have issues with Buffy, because she's my sister and when are there not issues? Anyways, I have to apologize because I feel really bad, Buffy's got enough on her plate and me being a brat? So not helping.
That said I also needed to find Anna cause my head still feels like it's going to explode and hopefully she's not feeling the same. Plus I need to make sure she doesn't think I do things like that all the time. Call it rebellion or whatever but getting drunk out of my mind and stealing cop cars? Not a regular Dawn type activity, I think she knows that but seeing as how she's like the best friend I have here she needs to know.
Plus Anna's like really cool and her friends, the older witches? They are so probably reeming her out and really it's a lot my fault and I feel bad that she's probably in a lot of trouble.
Bad thing about being here and being who I am? I have way too many people to be disappointed in me when I do stupid stuff. Cause you know that's the worst, being punished is nothing, who cares right? It's over after a week or a month or whatever but having people you respect disappointed in you? Like a punch to the gut. No fun. Which again is why me apologizing to Buffy is happening sometime like yesterday.
So I wanted to do all that, really I did, but with my head still pounding like you wouldn't believe I laid down. Anna would have to come back to the room sometime right? And Buffy was probably off fighting some big bad so if I just closed my eyes and drifted off that wouldn't technically being avoiding stuff would it?
Cause knowing you need to do things and actually doing them? Way different!