icanseeyou_ life has a funny way
I loved Italy for the first few months we were here. I mean it's still really nice but it gets annoying when Italian boys thing I'll just fawn all over them like a silly American girl. Ok so I did at first but I'm really over that, no I really am, after my last date with Paulo I'm swearing off guys forever. He was slobbery and pushy and I almost broke his nose!
It was fun, then I finished up school and have nothing to do. Buffy won't let me do anything besides watcherly stuff, which means no training just boring language learning. I like languages and I'm getting pretty good at some of the demon ones, but that's because Andrew went an entire month only talking in this one obscure language and I started to pick it up. Plus Latin started coming really easy, Buffy thinks I should study lanugages in school since I seem to have an affinity for them.
Granted Buffy's so freaked out right now I'm doing everything I can to be out of the apartment at all times. The first week after we heard about L.A. we were both hooled up in the apartment waiting for the phone to ring. I mean Spike (who Andrew finally decided to tell us WAS alive) and Angel were there and we tried to make ourselves believe they had nothing to do with the apocolyptic events but then we heard that Wolfram and Hart bascially emploded we couldn't not know.
Neither of them said anything to us when they were in Italy trying to save Buffy from the stupid immortal, not that she needed saving and I'm sure Andrew embelished everything he said. I mean Angel crying? Please. Anyways, I started to get angry when he told us. Angel was like a big brother to me when he and Buffy were dating, he always called me brat and told me I'd be a heart breaker when I got older. I think he was my first crush, and then he left and I was so mad, Buffy cried so much after he was gone, I don't remember a night when I couldn't hear her crying in her sleep. Then she started to get better. I liked Riley well enough, I mean he was nice but it wasn't the same.
And Spike? He'd been like my best friend before Buffy died and even for a while after. He did kind of taper off once they started having sex because all that mattered was making her miserable but whatever. I wanted to kill him when I found out he tried to rape her but sometime in that last year he was my Spike again, back to treated me like a person and not a kid, and Buffy forgave him.
They were two people who I'd missed, sure Angel had been gone longer so it'd gotten easier to deal with the fact that he wasn't around, but Spike died. Spike died and he didn't even bother to tell us he was alive whenever he came back, I still have no idea how that's even possible but he didn't tell us. They were both here and neither of them stayed around to say hey. And now they could be dead.
Buffy was cataonic for a while, I always wondered what would happen if Angel died, she keeps saying that maybe she's wrong, deep inside maybe when she was brought back something changed. I tried to ask her what she meant and she said she couldn't feel him, but she had to be wrong. When she came back it was different, he was alive, she knew it.
I wasn't so sure but I wasn't going to tell her, I just decided that we'd wait. I mean someone would tell us something. Someone would hear something right? They had to, everyone knew about Buffy and Angel and if something happened to him they'd tell her. Hell most people knew about Buffy and Spike too. I just had to stop worrying about it and I started getting out of the house and eventually Buffy started eating again and she's being the good slayer, but I can tell she's trying not to break down.
I groaned and stretched out on the couch, Buffy was out patrolling or training some new girls and I was avoiding my cell phone at all costs, I would not be going on another date with Paulo or any other boy, you know ever.
It was fun, then I finished up school and have nothing to do. Buffy won't let me do anything besides watcherly stuff, which means no training just boring language learning. I like languages and I'm getting pretty good at some of the demon ones, but that's because Andrew went an entire month only talking in this one obscure language and I started to pick it up. Plus Latin started coming really easy, Buffy thinks I should study lanugages in school since I seem to have an affinity for them.
Granted Buffy's so freaked out right now I'm doing everything I can to be out of the apartment at all times. The first week after we heard about L.A. we were both hooled up in the apartment waiting for the phone to ring. I mean Spike (who Andrew finally decided to tell us WAS alive) and Angel were there and we tried to make ourselves believe they had nothing to do with the apocolyptic events but then we heard that Wolfram and Hart bascially emploded we couldn't not know.
Neither of them said anything to us when they were in Italy trying to save Buffy from the stupid immortal, not that she needed saving and I'm sure Andrew embelished everything he said. I mean Angel crying? Please. Anyways, I started to get angry when he told us. Angel was like a big brother to me when he and Buffy were dating, he always called me brat and told me I'd be a heart breaker when I got older. I think he was my first crush, and then he left and I was so mad, Buffy cried so much after he was gone, I don't remember a night when I couldn't hear her crying in her sleep. Then she started to get better. I liked Riley well enough, I mean he was nice but it wasn't the same.
And Spike? He'd been like my best friend before Buffy died and even for a while after. He did kind of taper off once they started having sex because all that mattered was making her miserable but whatever. I wanted to kill him when I found out he tried to rape her but sometime in that last year he was my Spike again, back to treated me like a person and not a kid, and Buffy forgave him.
They were two people who I'd missed, sure Angel had been gone longer so it'd gotten easier to deal with the fact that he wasn't around, but Spike died. Spike died and he didn't even bother to tell us he was alive whenever he came back, I still have no idea how that's even possible but he didn't tell us. They were both here and neither of them stayed around to say hey. And now they could be dead.
Buffy was cataonic for a while, I always wondered what would happen if Angel died, she keeps saying that maybe she's wrong, deep inside maybe when she was brought back something changed. I tried to ask her what she meant and she said she couldn't feel him, but she had to be wrong. When she came back it was different, he was alive, she knew it.
I wasn't so sure but I wasn't going to tell her, I just decided that we'd wait. I mean someone would tell us something. Someone would hear something right? They had to, everyone knew about Buffy and Angel and if something happened to him they'd tell her. Hell most people knew about Buffy and Spike too. I just had to stop worrying about it and I started getting out of the house and eventually Buffy started eating again and she's being the good slayer, but I can tell she's trying not to break down.
I groaned and stretched out on the couch, Buffy was out patrolling or training some new girls and I was avoiding my cell phone at all costs, I would not be going on another date with Paulo or any other boy, you know ever.