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That last few days have been...intresting. I'm here in Jersey. I want to go back to Virgina so badly. I cry over it almost every nite. I miss my life there, I miss Josh and my friends. I need them, sometimes more then family, because somethings you can talk about with your family. I'm depressed, my mother asked me that thee other nite. I told her I was. She left it like that, she can't even phatom, what I'm going though right now. I want to follow my heart. I feel grown up. I hate it here. I'm slowly going crazy..the bad kind of crazy. I want to cry and have Josh hold me. I miss him so badly. I'm thinking about running away back to Virginia, when I get the money together. I am, and I'm not looking back. I feel like a stranger here, in my Mom's house, Like I don't fit in, with my family anymore. I'm going crazy...I smoke like a pack of cigarettes a day. I'm under so much pressure and stress at this point in my life. I want to break down and cry so badly. I think I might just end up doing that. I already don't like it here. I get my mind set,and I know I hate it here. I want to go back to virginia, my home,my life is there and my love...I have no one here,I want to pack up my car and go.and not look back,like I said..