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i'm exhausted. just completely exhausted lately. physically, mentally, everything. i dont do well with stress. i have way to much stress. i worry about too much.
things that -hopefully- aren't really that big of a deal.
i don't want to be invisible. i dont want to be settled for. i hate feeling like i know everyone could have found someone so much better than me. i know i say this a lot. i'd like not to believe it. really i would. oh well.
i am so ready to not look the way i do now. i hate looking around when i go places and wishing i looked so much better, i need to accept that its not ever going to change. i'm never going to be thin and pretty. i dont know why i even try.
the only positive thing i can think of right now is that i will be going back to disney world in two weeks and that makes me really happy. and i also got my prom dress last weekend. but that can go both ways...
things that -hopefully- aren't really that big of a deal.
i don't want to be invisible. i dont want to be settled for. i hate feeling like i know everyone could have found someone so much better than me. i know i say this a lot. i'd like not to believe it. really i would. oh well.
i am so ready to not look the way i do now. i hate looking around when i go places and wishing i looked so much better, i need to accept that its not ever going to change. i'm never going to be thin and pretty. i dont know why i even try.
the only positive thing i can think of right now is that i will be going back to disney world in two weeks and that makes me really happy. and i also got my prom dress last weekend. but that can go both ways...