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I know I never write on here anymore, but i am in a state of thorough unrest. I go through moments where I am having a lot of fun at school, but they don't really last. I know I am transferring and everything will be fixed next fall, but right now it's like i have this weight on me. It consists of french class, missing my parents, will, and corina, the neverending virus that plagues my computer, knowing about problems back home, and mostly missing all the feelings that come with being around Will. I feel so lonely and awkward here and I never feel that way when I am with him. I know these people would like me better if they knew the confident Allyson I am just not prepared to give that in my vulnerable state. I will take the blame too, but I just wish it was different. I wish Corina and Will did go to school with me and that everything was ok back at home. But i guess it isn't and I guess that's life. le sigh.