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i think I'm always just a bit more sincere on this ol' journal. the scope of people who read it is smaller. it's more intimate. i like that.
i'm doing a run for the women of congo on saturday. i'm also reading this book called "Until It's Over" about ending poverty. and everyday i go to Goodwill and interview people and research programs that are taking action, RIGHT NOW, to do something about social problems. just the fact that i'm there, young and ideal, seems to spark some sort of admiration in the eyes of the people at Goodwill. they love to see a new generation involved. its a little daunting because i feel like, coming into this job, there were already high expectations of me. my character was already decided to be good. i don't want to disappoint. i don't think i am, though. i wrote another article today that Tricia really loved. it made me feel really good. Goodwill is an amazing opportunity for me, despite my homesickness. the things i am getting to do there are things i might never have been able to accomplish anywhere else. i am respected and trusted there. i feel like an adult. its refreshing.
i feel pretty good about life and the decisions i've made and where i am headed. i've trusted myself even when i had little support and also when i had an abundance of it. that's a valuable thing to have, i think. faith in oneself. i don't know where the hell i got it from. i look at pictures of me in highschool, so into myself and my "problems," dressed in my baggy dickies and tight tanks with zany colors and zippers in strange places and i really don't see how she became this. i'm glad it happened, but im puzzled as to how..or when...
life is a funny thing.
i'm doing a run for the women of congo on saturday. i'm also reading this book called "Until It's Over" about ending poverty. and everyday i go to Goodwill and interview people and research programs that are taking action, RIGHT NOW, to do something about social problems. just the fact that i'm there, young and ideal, seems to spark some sort of admiration in the eyes of the people at Goodwill. they love to see a new generation involved. its a little daunting because i feel like, coming into this job, there were already high expectations of me. my character was already decided to be good. i don't want to disappoint. i don't think i am, though. i wrote another article today that Tricia really loved. it made me feel really good. Goodwill is an amazing opportunity for me, despite my homesickness. the things i am getting to do there are things i might never have been able to accomplish anywhere else. i am respected and trusted there. i feel like an adult. its refreshing.
i feel pretty good about life and the decisions i've made and where i am headed. i've trusted myself even when i had little support and also when i had an abundance of it. that's a valuable thing to have, i think. faith in oneself. i don't know where the hell i got it from. i look at pictures of me in highschool, so into myself and my "problems," dressed in my baggy dickies and tight tanks with zany colors and zippers in strange places and i really don't see how she became this. i'm glad it happened, but im puzzled as to how..or when...
life is a funny thing.