Subconscious:1; Me: 0
I woke up this morning in totally the wrong state of mind, which put a damper on a huge portion of the work day. After careful recollection that the reason I woke up so moody wasn't so much the weather as it was this: Just before waking up, my dream took a very depressing turn and brought out two of the most uncomfortable and unresolved people in my life. First my ex-girlfriend Kelly, who briefly flashed me an uncomfortable look before disappearing, and then my old pal Kayla, who determinedly ignored me and never once acknowledged my presence even though she was right next to me.
For the record, I don't like to dwell on those two people. I have other people I've known who I have unresolved business with, but Kay and Kelly, unfortunately became really close with me before becoming estranged. The last time I tried to talk to Kelly, the conversation was short, and she sounded thoroughly uncomfortable and keen to speak as little as possible. As pleasant as I try to be on the occasional facebook message, I get the feeling, we'll never be on remotely acceptable terms again.
As for Kay, a lot of good and bad blood between us. Lots of strong bonds, lots of ego clashes, lots of arguements, lots of fights. But after resolving a bitter feud, and making it clear that no more fighting would be tolerated, we were on fairly good terms with our last phone conversation thoroughly pleasant. Now, she neither answers nor returns my calls, and I don't know why. Maybe she's thrown me onto the pile of "everything about the old home" she's been so determined to discard. And if that's really the case, thanks a lot chum. I only stuck my neck out for you like 45 times now.
Damn you subconscious! Why, in my perfectly happy, satisfying, and serene existence must you trot skeletons out of my closet and hit me with them at 60 miles an hour? That's not fair! Next time, could you at least let me dream about the people I'm still good with? Someone I don't mind remembering? Or else, just stick with dreams so bizarre and obscure I won't remember any of them in the morning. That's all I ask. And on that note, I'm going to bed.
For the record, I don't like to dwell on those two people. I have other people I've known who I have unresolved business with, but Kay and Kelly, unfortunately became really close with me before becoming estranged. The last time I tried to talk to Kelly, the conversation was short, and she sounded thoroughly uncomfortable and keen to speak as little as possible. As pleasant as I try to be on the occasional facebook message, I get the feeling, we'll never be on remotely acceptable terms again.
As for Kay, a lot of good and bad blood between us. Lots of strong bonds, lots of ego clashes, lots of arguements, lots of fights. But after resolving a bitter feud, and making it clear that no more fighting would be tolerated, we were on fairly good terms with our last phone conversation thoroughly pleasant. Now, she neither answers nor returns my calls, and I don't know why. Maybe she's thrown me onto the pile of "everything about the old home" she's been so determined to discard. And if that's really the case, thanks a lot chum. I only stuck my neck out for you like 45 times now.
Damn you subconscious! Why, in my perfectly happy, satisfying, and serene existence must you trot skeletons out of my closet and hit me with them at 60 miles an hour? That's not fair! Next time, could you at least let me dream about the people I'm still good with? Someone I don't mind remembering? Or else, just stick with dreams so bizarre and obscure I won't remember any of them in the morning. That's all I ask. And on that note, I'm going to bed.