raelly confused on their drama
So I realized a reoccurring theme in a lot of LJs these days...and am happy that I haven't felt compelled to post based on similar intentions.
Everything is going very well, all things considered. Yeah, work is driving me insane because of how super lame it's been going...but on the other hand it IS only X number of hours a week and I do go in at this point with the intention of not letting it get to me outside of the paid hours.
And on another note, I can't help but have the dick part of me be amused by misinterpretations of my actions and ideals. This is a summer of no apologies, a summer like all others in which I do what I do to make me and those around me happy, without caving into traditional aspects of drama and problems which tend to couple themselves with the usual stresses of the academic year. I want people to have fun in whatever ways they need, but I'm also not going to feel obligated to walk on eggshells or tiptoe around corners just because of specific weak points people may opt to have. Those aren't my concerns, nor are they mine to be concerned about if I'm shut out or uninformed based on lack of communication. I get blamed at work for other people's poor planning and communication, so I'm not about to punch out and be expected to deal with similar philosophies.
Still, the fact remains that I myself am happy. I love the new room, David and I are going very well, and I have clear goals set for what I want to do with the remainder of my summer. I have a fun and interesting semester coming up, one which will fortunately be accomplished via the aid of my Mom and Stepdad rather than father. It's a long story, but the fact is we're apparently trying to all interact with each other like human beings once again. Of course there's still this highly on guard part of me approaching the whole situation, but that part seems to be overshadowed by my overwhelming desire to remove areas of conflict and concern from my life.
Despite what people read into me, very few people actually know what goes on between these ears. I can't help but chuckle when others think any single action I ever do isn't pre-planned, prepared, and occassionally calculated as needed to get results. It's all a big experiment, and I've never been one to stay on the slide...I'm much more of the active participant and observer.
Sorry if your summer sucks or whatnot. Then again, it's only as much my problem as you make it. And realistically, as it is your summer, how much of my concern should I expect it to be?
Everything is going very well, all things considered. Yeah, work is driving me insane because of how super lame it's been going...but on the other hand it IS only X number of hours a week and I do go in at this point with the intention of not letting it get to me outside of the paid hours.
And on another note, I can't help but have the dick part of me be amused by misinterpretations of my actions and ideals. This is a summer of no apologies, a summer like all others in which I do what I do to make me and those around me happy, without caving into traditional aspects of drama and problems which tend to couple themselves with the usual stresses of the academic year. I want people to have fun in whatever ways they need, but I'm also not going to feel obligated to walk on eggshells or tiptoe around corners just because of specific weak points people may opt to have. Those aren't my concerns, nor are they mine to be concerned about if I'm shut out or uninformed based on lack of communication. I get blamed at work for other people's poor planning and communication, so I'm not about to punch out and be expected to deal with similar philosophies.
Still, the fact remains that I myself am happy. I love the new room, David and I are going very well, and I have clear goals set for what I want to do with the remainder of my summer. I have a fun and interesting semester coming up, one which will fortunately be accomplished via the aid of my Mom and Stepdad rather than father. It's a long story, but the fact is we're apparently trying to all interact with each other like human beings once again. Of course there's still this highly on guard part of me approaching the whole situation, but that part seems to be overshadowed by my overwhelming desire to remove areas of conflict and concern from my life.
Despite what people read into me, very few people actually know what goes on between these ears. I can't help but chuckle when others think any single action I ever do isn't pre-planned, prepared, and occassionally calculated as needed to get results. It's all a big experiment, and I've never been one to stay on the slide...I'm much more of the active participant and observer.
Sorry if your summer sucks or whatnot. Then again, it's only as much my problem as you make it. And realistically, as it is your summer, how much of my concern should I expect it to be?