Expendable
Look..
If I'm so replaceable, fucking replace me. I'm tired of worrying about getting kicked out.
It just makes no sense. You call and tell me I'm the best bass player you've ever had and all this shit, then you tell me you're going to kick me out.
And this whole show thing is bullshit. You can't just book a show the following day, and expect everyone to drop what they're doing to play it. Tomorrow will be my third day at work, and no, I'm not fucking calling out. These are things that should be discussed. It shouldn't be like "Well, we're playing this show tomorrow, even though you and Micah are working, but if you guys don't show up, you're fucking gone."
Fuck that. Fuck this. I'm done.. I knew this would happen (again) sooner or later, and I'd already made up my mind that if it does, fuck it. You blame it on alcohol or my not 'appearing to want to play bass' or whatever the fuck you want. I don't care. But I know that for whatever reason you either have something against me, or me playing in the band. And that's cool. Problem solved.
Besides, it was never about me anyway. Or any of us for that matter. It's not our band, it's yours, no matter what you say, you're the only one with the "authority" to just up and decide to kick someone out, and that doesn't leave me with much security, because you seem to be the only one who wants me out. I'm not used to it, and I'm not going to get used to it either. If I'm going to be treated like I don't fucking matter, then I don't want anything to do with it.
I'm sorry to the rest of you guys, but I won't do this anymore. I'm not trying to make any of this personal, and I don't want everyone to hate me over this, it's my decision. I'm not saying I don't want to hang out, I'm just done playing in this band. Hopefully I'll start something else up (ha) and maybe we'll play shows together. Who knows.
Anyway, you guys have fun.
If I'm so replaceable, fucking replace me. I'm tired of worrying about getting kicked out.
It just makes no sense. You call and tell me I'm the best bass player you've ever had and all this shit, then you tell me you're going to kick me out.
And this whole show thing is bullshit. You can't just book a show the following day, and expect everyone to drop what they're doing to play it. Tomorrow will be my third day at work, and no, I'm not fucking calling out. These are things that should be discussed. It shouldn't be like "Well, we're playing this show tomorrow, even though you and Micah are working, but if you guys don't show up, you're fucking gone."
Fuck that. Fuck this. I'm done.. I knew this would happen (again) sooner or later, and I'd already made up my mind that if it does, fuck it. You blame it on alcohol or my not 'appearing to want to play bass' or whatever the fuck you want. I don't care. But I know that for whatever reason you either have something against me, or me playing in the band. And that's cool. Problem solved.
Besides, it was never about me anyway. Or any of us for that matter. It's not our band, it's yours, no matter what you say, you're the only one with the "authority" to just up and decide to kick someone out, and that doesn't leave me with much security, because you seem to be the only one who wants me out. I'm not used to it, and I'm not going to get used to it either. If I'm going to be treated like I don't fucking matter, then I don't want anything to do with it.
I'm sorry to the rest of you guys, but I won't do this anymore. I'm not trying to make any of this personal, and I don't want everyone to hate me over this, it's my decision. I'm not saying I don't want to hang out, I'm just done playing in this band. Hopefully I'll start something else up (ha) and maybe we'll play shows together. Who knows.
Anyway, you guys have fun.