I start to melt..
Wow. What. A. Week.
This has easily been the hardest/worst week I have had since I moved to Maine. Mostly because of work stuff, but a little bit of personal things as well.
As far as work goes, I have basically had this big roommate thing that I have dealt with, in some capacity, every single day this week. And every day it just gets worse. First I got yelled at by one parent, then the other, then met with the roommates, then the JAs, then the deans, then a mediation with the Deans and roommates, then more angry parent calls today. The whole situation is very unfortunate, and it didn't turn out the way I wanted it to. This is my first really big disappointment in my career. I wanted them to resolve it and I know they could, but neither of them cared to try. I can force them to have conversations with me and such, but I can't make them care. And the fact that I couldn't really upsets me. Not only that, but one of the parents is painting is as a racial issue, which hurts me even more because it has absolutely nothing to do with that.
All these things came to a head when I was on the phone this morning with Marylyn (one of the Deans) and I just started crying. I was so embarrassed but I was keeping in all my emotion for so long that it just erupted on the phone with her. She was really supportive though and told me she thought I did my best and that I was very fair and equitable and fought for justice. It still sucks though. I haven't worked long enough to know how to distance myself from my work issues. I literally was worrying about this situation every night this week at home. I think the worst of it is over though so that is beneficial.
There was other random work stuff too. A situation with one of my buildings that was upsetting the staff and subsequently upsetting me. Students who needed to talk confidentially. Staff members who said annoying things during staff meeting. Dropping my entire lunch tray on some guy who ran into me at the cafeteria. Breaking another wine glass because I kicked it on accident. Looooong week.
Personally things have sucked too. Things with Steve got weird and upsetting. Now we have agreed not to talk often. So we haven't talked in a few days and that seems weird. But I guess it's for the best. That weirdness caused me to have a weird night with Geoffrey on Monday.
Also, I'm very annoyed with "friends" lately. There are a few people I know in this area who I have been trying to get together with. They aren't people who are like my best friends, but people I know that I thought would be fun to see again and hang out and give me an excuse to get out of Maine. They have all expressed interest in hanging out and getting together for a weekend, and then never responded to me again when i asked about dates and stuff. I find that horribly annoying.
And it's also happening with people I know in Maine. I was texting with one guy I'm friends with and asked why we weren't friends anymore and he said because I live too far away. That irritated me to no end. We live like 35 minutes away. I'm sorry but that isn't very far. I then said in partial jest "I guess we'll never see each other again" and he said we will. I don't believe it, and that was Monday and I haven't heard from him since. Frustrating.
It just sucks. I mean any place can be really fun and exciting if you have good friends. And I don't feel like I have friends here that are anything like my friends from California or Iowa. It sucks. It's not to say I'm unhappy it's just things are different. This entry is also colored by the fact that I'm having a bad week so I'm probably making it all seem worse than it is.
In other worlds, I'm applying to grad school and that is stressful as well. Stupid GRE scores went up to 20 bucks PER SCORE. That's a fucking lot of money. Not happy. And transcripts from Chappy are 7.75, and 12.00 at Iowa State. It's insane. Here is my school list:
NYU
Columbia
Northwestern
Loyola Chicago
Seattle University
University of Denver
Trinity College Dublin
I assume because of my past res life experience, plus this job, plus good grades and good GRE scores, plus the amazing recommendations I'm going to get, I will have a really good shot at getting into most of these schools. I just hope someplace offers me money. If they don't I could be sunk. But let's not think about that.
It's Fall here and it's wonderful. I haven't been in Fall in a long time. I love walking to work and crunching through the leaves and looking at all the wonderful colors. It's amazing. It's days like this I wish I had someone to crunch through leaves with and then go have hot chocolate and watch a movie or something. Ugh.
In good news, I have a plane ticket booked for Las Vegas for Oct. 31-Nov. 2. So that will be amazing. Then once I get back I have like 6 or 7 days here, then I'm going to a conference in Massachusetts with Sara (paid for entirely by Bates! Yay!) And as soon as that ends, I am going out to Houston to see Denton and go to the Madonna concert. Goooood times. So that will at least be marginally exciting. Thanksgiving I have no idea yet. Christmas I'll be home. New Year's hopefully in Boston with BM. Then I'll hit my busy season at work until about March. And by then I'll know what school I'm going to!
I also am dying to travel somewhere. I know I have to wait until June, when I have the time off, and more money saved, but I want to go now. I'm trying to figure out where I am going to go and with whom. More to come on that.
Ok well I suppose I could get back to work. I've been so upset by everything today that I've had a really hard time working. Actually I guess I worked all morning. Since lunch I've read ANTM recaps online, and watched last night's Office on nbc.com. And now I'm doing this.
Ok, well here's to hoping that next week is substantially better than this one.
BREAK!
This has easily been the hardest/worst week I have had since I moved to Maine. Mostly because of work stuff, but a little bit of personal things as well.
As far as work goes, I have basically had this big roommate thing that I have dealt with, in some capacity, every single day this week. And every day it just gets worse. First I got yelled at by one parent, then the other, then met with the roommates, then the JAs, then the deans, then a mediation with the Deans and roommates, then more angry parent calls today. The whole situation is very unfortunate, and it didn't turn out the way I wanted it to. This is my first really big disappointment in my career. I wanted them to resolve it and I know they could, but neither of them cared to try. I can force them to have conversations with me and such, but I can't make them care. And the fact that I couldn't really upsets me. Not only that, but one of the parents is painting is as a racial issue, which hurts me even more because it has absolutely nothing to do with that.
All these things came to a head when I was on the phone this morning with Marylyn (one of the Deans) and I just started crying. I was so embarrassed but I was keeping in all my emotion for so long that it just erupted on the phone with her. She was really supportive though and told me she thought I did my best and that I was very fair and equitable and fought for justice. It still sucks though. I haven't worked long enough to know how to distance myself from my work issues. I literally was worrying about this situation every night this week at home. I think the worst of it is over though so that is beneficial.
There was other random work stuff too. A situation with one of my buildings that was upsetting the staff and subsequently upsetting me. Students who needed to talk confidentially. Staff members who said annoying things during staff meeting. Dropping my entire lunch tray on some guy who ran into me at the cafeteria. Breaking another wine glass because I kicked it on accident. Looooong week.
Personally things have sucked too. Things with Steve got weird and upsetting. Now we have agreed not to talk often. So we haven't talked in a few days and that seems weird. But I guess it's for the best. That weirdness caused me to have a weird night with Geoffrey on Monday.
Also, I'm very annoyed with "friends" lately. There are a few people I know in this area who I have been trying to get together with. They aren't people who are like my best friends, but people I know that I thought would be fun to see again and hang out and give me an excuse to get out of Maine. They have all expressed interest in hanging out and getting together for a weekend, and then never responded to me again when i asked about dates and stuff. I find that horribly annoying.
And it's also happening with people I know in Maine. I was texting with one guy I'm friends with and asked why we weren't friends anymore and he said because I live too far away. That irritated me to no end. We live like 35 minutes away. I'm sorry but that isn't very far. I then said in partial jest "I guess we'll never see each other again" and he said we will. I don't believe it, and that was Monday and I haven't heard from him since. Frustrating.
It just sucks. I mean any place can be really fun and exciting if you have good friends. And I don't feel like I have friends here that are anything like my friends from California or Iowa. It sucks. It's not to say I'm unhappy it's just things are different. This entry is also colored by the fact that I'm having a bad week so I'm probably making it all seem worse than it is.
In other worlds, I'm applying to grad school and that is stressful as well. Stupid GRE scores went up to 20 bucks PER SCORE. That's a fucking lot of money. Not happy. And transcripts from Chappy are 7.75, and 12.00 at Iowa State. It's insane. Here is my school list:
NYU
Columbia
Northwestern
Loyola Chicago
Seattle University
University of Denver
Trinity College Dublin
I assume because of my past res life experience, plus this job, plus good grades and good GRE scores, plus the amazing recommendations I'm going to get, I will have a really good shot at getting into most of these schools. I just hope someplace offers me money. If they don't I could be sunk. But let's not think about that.
It's Fall here and it's wonderful. I haven't been in Fall in a long time. I love walking to work and crunching through the leaves and looking at all the wonderful colors. It's amazing. It's days like this I wish I had someone to crunch through leaves with and then go have hot chocolate and watch a movie or something. Ugh.
In good news, I have a plane ticket booked for Las Vegas for Oct. 31-Nov. 2. So that will be amazing. Then once I get back I have like 6 or 7 days here, then I'm going to a conference in Massachusetts with Sara (paid for entirely by Bates! Yay!) And as soon as that ends, I am going out to Houston to see Denton and go to the Madonna concert. Goooood times. So that will at least be marginally exciting. Thanksgiving I have no idea yet. Christmas I'll be home. New Year's hopefully in Boston with BM. Then I'll hit my busy season at work until about March. And by then I'll know what school I'm going to!
I also am dying to travel somewhere. I know I have to wait until June, when I have the time off, and more money saved, but I want to go now. I'm trying to figure out where I am going to go and with whom. More to come on that.
Ok well I suppose I could get back to work. I've been so upset by everything today that I've had a really hard time working. Actually I guess I worked all morning. Since lunch I've read ANTM recaps online, and watched last night's Office on nbc.com. And now I'm doing this.
Ok, well here's to hoping that next week is substantially better than this one.
BREAK!