no ideas
Ugh, This sick feeling in my stomach won't go away. And I keep messing with different things on my computer, trying to create/do things, but I've got some kind of block right now. I'm just sitting here boring myself to death. I don't know what I want. It's like everything I think about doing seems uninteresting and makes me feel even more distended and sick... And I guess I was thinking of going out tonight, but I think everyone left without me before I realized... so I guess it'll be just me here tonight... I gotta think of something...
Last night someone behind me asked me where someone else was, and the person next to them tapped them to indicate that it wasn't a good subject to talk about. I didn't expect them to know this, and I pretended to simply not hear any of it, but I could tell that person felt bad for saying it. And that made me feel guilty. But I then pushed it away and continued to drift off into the fire's warm dance...
and here's a little video i'm working on (3mb wmv)
Last night someone behind me asked me where someone else was, and the person next to them tapped them to indicate that it wasn't a good subject to talk about. I didn't expect them to know this, and I pretended to simply not hear any of it, but I could tell that person felt bad for saying it. And that made me feel guilty. But I then pushed it away and continued to drift off into the fire's warm dance...
and here's a little video i'm working on (3mb wmv)