276: I'm Currently Drafting...
There's a reason French is my favorite class. Today, Chirol told me something I really needed to hear; it seems like she really cares, and I'm always convinced people don't. I really shouldn't be so hard on myself, it never helps; it just seems like I sabotage everything good that happens to me, because I don't expect it and feel I don't deserve it.
I got two pages on my essay today. I'm actually really excited about it. My writing seminar *is* called "Just a Girl (in the World)", but Rehn hasn't mentioned the song or Stefani once. So I'm using the song as a lense through which to analyze "Running Away with Gary the Mattress Salesman" by Catherine Fraga, a Sacramento poet. The theme of the course is girls growing up, and the collection definitely has some of that. I have a thesis, and I'm hoping to spin at least five pages, maybe more, if I can get away with it.
This only got me thinking (and excited) about other essays I could write: essays about unwoman, Albert Garcia, Eve. Wouldn't it cut the cake if I wrote a literary critique of "Body in Script" before it was published? But those stories have had such an effect on my life... And I'd like to write that essay about "Bluebeard's Castle". I really want to become a good essay writer, as much as poetry. Then maybe fiction...maybe.
I continue to sludge my way through Flannery O'Connors letters. Maybe another story soon. Prolly "A Good Man is Hard to Find". Hopefully, I can attain something resembling a draft tomorrow and post and get your guys' comments on it. It's due Friday, and we're supposedly workshopping our stuff Wednesday. Which means partenering up. I want to really blow this one out of the water.