595: This is the Best I Could Do...

[andyleggett]

Pantoum

Fool that I am, I just can't let go--
I sit here, phone pressed against my ear,
listening to your voice again and again,
remembering the deep sadness of your eyes.

I sit here, phone pressed against my ear,
wishing to rectify things beyond my control,
remembering the deep sadness of your eyes
and how I was starting to fall in love with you,

wishing to rectify things beyond my control
by hiding things I was never capable of hiding.
And how I was starting to fall in love with you...
No, I need to forget about such things. But

by hiding things I was never capable of hiding,
I feel that I gave up everything I shouldn't have.
No, I need to forget about such things. But
every time I listen to your voice on this message,

I feel that I gave up everything I shouldn't have.
I have saved this ever since last summer, but
every time I listen to your voice on this message
I can't decide whether to laugh or cry. It's all

so cliche, I know, but I miss you, I do. And
listening to your voice again and again,
I don't know what I could have done differently.
Fool that I am, I just can't let go.