574: Well...
The jobhunt hasn't been going as well as I would have hoped... but still, progress is progress, and one way or the other, I'm sure I will find something. Or I won't. *collapses in defeat*
I've applied at several places, I suppose the follow-up part is what's confusing me this week. And I think I'm just gonna go ahead and get over my non-coffee-drinking ways and apply at some coffee shops anyway. And, if I get really desperate, maybe I could just work at a gas station...lol
At any rate, that's been stressing me out, obviously. And then this whole Brian-not-talking-to-me-anymore thing has gotten me feeling very sad. Then again, the entire SacFag Incest thing is really beginning to piss me off... quite literally, I know two people, and I meet four more people, and it's basically like an unfolding snowflake paper cutout wherein everyone's either fucked or stalked everyone else. I really don't know what to do aboot it...
At any rate, I've gotten over the hookup thing, just 'cause I'd want something more regular. And bless me stars, I think I might be getting there: there's one guy, the cyclist from West Sac, who seems pretty intrested in me, at least as a fuckbuddy. Which I would be fine with at this point... at least I see him again, and he's pleasant to be around, and the sex is pretty good.
Then there's my Algerian Lover... we'll see how that works out. Apparently Brian was once really into him, and I can see why: he's a sweetheart and has many mad skills. I will let your imagination fill in the rest, but let me just say, he is quite the bull...;)
And other than that, I've just been trying to meet more gay guys, not necessarily for sex. I've never really had gay guy friends, so I've been hanging out with and talking to various peoples... some intresting, some annoying, some funny, some kinda creepy...*le sigh* Y'know, Brian was basically my main gay guy friend here in Sac, and considering he's not talking to me 'cause of Chad... well, kinda makes me not wanna hang out with Chad either, y'knows?
(Actually, I don't know that it was Chad who made the call; sounds more like a Matthew Keys thing... but Brian still hasn't said he's upset with me or anything. He's just ignoring me, so I'm trying to get over it... it's hard when I care aboot him so much, but oh wells...)
Okay, what else? Other than money/job issues? Um... there was a big old thunder/lightning storm tonight. Very unusual for Sac. I got out in the rain though, it was a lovely moment...
I've applied at several places, I suppose the follow-up part is what's confusing me this week. And I think I'm just gonna go ahead and get over my non-coffee-drinking ways and apply at some coffee shops anyway. And, if I get really desperate, maybe I could just work at a gas station...lol
At any rate, that's been stressing me out, obviously. And then this whole Brian-not-talking-to-me-anymore thing has gotten me feeling very sad. Then again, the entire SacFag Incest thing is really beginning to piss me off... quite literally, I know two people, and I meet four more people, and it's basically like an unfolding snowflake paper cutout wherein everyone's either fucked or stalked everyone else. I really don't know what to do aboot it...
At any rate, I've gotten over the hookup thing, just 'cause I'd want something more regular. And bless me stars, I think I might be getting there: there's one guy, the cyclist from West Sac, who seems pretty intrested in me, at least as a fuckbuddy. Which I would be fine with at this point... at least I see him again, and he's pleasant to be around, and the sex is pretty good.
Then there's my Algerian Lover... we'll see how that works out. Apparently Brian was once really into him, and I can see why: he's a sweetheart and has many mad skills. I will let your imagination fill in the rest, but let me just say, he is quite the bull...;)
And other than that, I've just been trying to meet more gay guys, not necessarily for sex. I've never really had gay guy friends, so I've been hanging out with and talking to various peoples... some intresting, some annoying, some funny, some kinda creepy...*le sigh* Y'know, Brian was basically my main gay guy friend here in Sac, and considering he's not talking to me 'cause of Chad... well, kinda makes me not wanna hang out with Chad either, y'knows?
(Actually, I don't know that it was Chad who made the call; sounds more like a Matthew Keys thing... but Brian still hasn't said he's upset with me or anything. He's just ignoring me, so I'm trying to get over it... it's hard when I care aboot him so much, but oh wells...)
Okay, what else? Other than money/job issues? Um... there was a big old thunder/lightning storm tonight. Very unusual for Sac. I got out in the rain though, it was a lovely moment...