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In a rut.
Knew these downer days would come.
I don't regret any decision I have made. Just... definetly feeling the pain I knew I would feel with that decision.
sucks.
I don't want to cry.
I haven't cried in ... long time - a record for me.
No time to cry . Nowhere to cry.... no... reason to cry. I did this to myself.
I'm slowly living what I've preached. That relationships are what life is about. I have learned that, slowly. Relationships with my family, my friends - and actually embracing every moment I have with them. Not just saying it - doing it.
I don't know why things are hard right now. All the rush has passed. All of the drama has passed. All of the - everything has passed.. Now I'm left.. with everything in my head, in my aching heart. Knew this would come, just... been ignoring it, putting it on the back burner.
I don't want to burden anyone. I keep my mouth shut. I dont' want to burden myself sadly. So I skip over the songs that I know will make me sad, I don't let myself get bored, I have been avoiding myself.
Can't do that forever I suppose.
I love friends I love family... I love the... love that you feel from good friends. I hate when that fades - its life. I hate that people will forget me. I hate that I will forget people.
Hope everyone is well !
I'm glad its gettin' sunny out!
Knew these downer days would come.
I don't regret any decision I have made. Just... definetly feeling the pain I knew I would feel with that decision.
sucks.
I don't want to cry.
I haven't cried in ... long time - a record for me.
No time to cry . Nowhere to cry.... no... reason to cry. I did this to myself.
I'm slowly living what I've preached. That relationships are what life is about. I have learned that, slowly. Relationships with my family, my friends - and actually embracing every moment I have with them. Not just saying it - doing it.
I don't know why things are hard right now. All the rush has passed. All of the drama has passed. All of the - everything has passed.. Now I'm left.. with everything in my head, in my aching heart. Knew this would come, just... been ignoring it, putting it on the back burner.
I don't want to burden anyone. I keep my mouth shut. I dont' want to burden myself sadly. So I skip over the songs that I know will make me sad, I don't let myself get bored, I have been avoiding myself.
Can't do that forever I suppose.
I love friends I love family... I love the... love that you feel from good friends. I hate when that fades - its life. I hate that people will forget me. I hate that I will forget people.
Hope everyone is well !
I'm glad its gettin' sunny out!