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"even on the best days in september, it's hard to find my peace of mind. I'd like to blame it on the weather. . ." - defiance ohio
Weather being the transient external conditions of life - do they actually cause our problems or acting out the role of the eternal problem, sometimes amplifying or expanding on it when they can. Right now there's so fucking much i want to blame on the weather. What kind of fucked up people would choose to live with death, right outside their door for three months? Wanna die? you don't even have to try! Just go sit outside, it's so quick and clean we won't even have to whipe off the ground where you lie! No really don't. Anyway it's easy to convince myself of winters role in making me feel like i'm living in a cloud of hopelessness, but then i have to turn back to myself and take responsibility for my paralysis without - and here's the impossible part - beating the shit out of myself to a point where i would have probably been better off blaming the weather.
Weather being the transient external conditions of life - do they actually cause our problems or acting out the role of the eternal problem, sometimes amplifying or expanding on it when they can. Right now there's so fucking much i want to blame on the weather. What kind of fucked up people would choose to live with death, right outside their door for three months? Wanna die? you don't even have to try! Just go sit outside, it's so quick and clean we won't even have to whipe off the ground where you lie! No really don't. Anyway it's easy to convince myself of winters role in making me feel like i'm living in a cloud of hopelessness, but then i have to turn back to myself and take responsibility for my paralysis without - and here's the impossible part - beating the shit out of myself to a point where i would have probably been better off blaming the weather.