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[andyi_lynn]

I believe that fate is a body that governs us all. That we are destined to a path and if we choose it on our own or if we have to be thrown onto it we will end up there. I've seen so many people who have been married and divorced and then remarried and sometimes its the second or third person they marry who was the person they should have ended up with. But I also believe that you can be meant to be with the first, or only, person you marry. I think that it takes two people willing to work on a life together to have a successful marriage. I have no intention of getting divorced when, or if, I ever get married. I want to make things work with the choice I have made. I think God has already stopped me from a marriage that would have been bad for me so that I wouldn't have to get divorced. I want to be better than my parents have, I know they may be happy now but they should have been happy in the first place.

I just wish I could know where I would be in a year... I have no idea. I wish I could know where my life is headed, how I'm going to make it through things. If my path stays on the road I'm on I can see me being really happy, but the question is if I will be taken on that road or if I'm just being lead a certain way for someone else's momentary gain. Is there a chance for a future down this road or am I just going to get hurt.

I've debated making a huge move for me, which would include a change of job and practically a new life. But being the scared person I am I'm terrified to make this choice and end up being left behind. I guess I will have to wait and see what happens...