have a little faith in me
im lost. im so confused. i dont know what to do.
somebody please tell me what the fuck to do.
I have been a nosy paranoid non trusting bitch ever since I found those IMs on Justin's computer. So I have Justin's email password. He didn't know I had his email password until yesterday when I found naked pictures of the same girl I found those IMs from. So I confronted him about it and he claimed that he hadn't talked to the girl in like a year and he didn't know why she was sending him that shit.
This sounds like total bullshit to me. Why would a girl send naked pictures to a guy that's been ignoring her and that she hasn't talked to in a year? Doesn't make the least bit of sense right?
So I talked to Morgan about it since she knows Justin. She convinced me to message the girl and find out for myself what was really going on. So I did.
This was her response...
"holy shit. i'm so sorry. he's the slimeball here...i hate to have to be the one to tell you this since he's obviously not going to.
everytime i talk to him basically all he says is "Are you naked? you should be naked. i'm not gonna talk to you if you're not naked" jokingly, of course. but yeah...i'm not sure what else i can say except i'm sorry and i really didn't know he had other shit going on. i can imagine how incredibly pissed you are though. i can totally stop talking to him if that would help fix anything. man....i'm just really sorry any of this happened."
I also asked her how often they talk...
"hmmm. i'd say we talked about...idk. not too often. more like, a few times a month. i havent had my phone for a little over a month though so i didnt start talking to him again until like last thursday or friday. but ive only talked to him a couple more times since then. but like...last year we talked just about everyday. and i reeeaaally feel like shit about all of this. but yeah. all that sounds about right."
So again I freak out on Justin and he again denies everything. He says shes a crazy lying bitch. A compulsive liar. He said he can't believe that I would take her word over his. He said that he almost lost me once because of this girl and he would be an idiot to do it again.
I told him that I had just caught him lying because I know that they had talked since then. I had seen the IMs. and he commented on one of her pictures in late July. Why would you comment on a picture of a girl you don't talk to?
So its basically her word against his. Everything she is saying makes sense and nothing he is saying makes any sense.
You know I was watching Religulous this weekend while I was sick in bed and there is this great quote from Bill Mahr at the end about religion and faith and how faith is "making a virtue out of not thinking"
and i feel like thats what Justin is asking me to do. Hes asking me to go against everything that my head is telling me and everything that makes sense and have faith in him.
And I have never been a person of faith.
Someone please just give me the answer.
somebody please tell me what the fuck to do.
I have been a nosy paranoid non trusting bitch ever since I found those IMs on Justin's computer. So I have Justin's email password. He didn't know I had his email password until yesterday when I found naked pictures of the same girl I found those IMs from. So I confronted him about it and he claimed that he hadn't talked to the girl in like a year and he didn't know why she was sending him that shit.
This sounds like total bullshit to me. Why would a girl send naked pictures to a guy that's been ignoring her and that she hasn't talked to in a year? Doesn't make the least bit of sense right?
So I talked to Morgan about it since she knows Justin. She convinced me to message the girl and find out for myself what was really going on. So I did.
This was her response...
"holy shit. i'm so sorry. he's the slimeball here...i hate to have to be the one to tell you this since he's obviously not going to.
everytime i talk to him basically all he says is "Are you naked? you should be naked. i'm not gonna talk to you if you're not naked" jokingly, of course. but yeah...i'm not sure what else i can say except i'm sorry and i really didn't know he had other shit going on. i can imagine how incredibly pissed you are though. i can totally stop talking to him if that would help fix anything. man....i'm just really sorry any of this happened."
I also asked her how often they talk...
"hmmm. i'd say we talked about...idk. not too often. more like, a few times a month. i havent had my phone for a little over a month though so i didnt start talking to him again until like last thursday or friday. but ive only talked to him a couple more times since then. but like...last year we talked just about everyday. and i reeeaaally feel like shit about all of this. but yeah. all that sounds about right."
So again I freak out on Justin and he again denies everything. He says shes a crazy lying bitch. A compulsive liar. He said he can't believe that I would take her word over his. He said that he almost lost me once because of this girl and he would be an idiot to do it again.
I told him that I had just caught him lying because I know that they had talked since then. I had seen the IMs. and he commented on one of her pictures in late July. Why would you comment on a picture of a girl you don't talk to?
So its basically her word against his. Everything she is saying makes sense and nothing he is saying makes any sense.
You know I was watching Religulous this weekend while I was sick in bed and there is this great quote from Bill Mahr at the end about religion and faith and how faith is "making a virtue out of not thinking"
and i feel like thats what Justin is asking me to do. Hes asking me to go against everything that my head is telling me and everything that makes sense and have faith in him.
And I have never been a person of faith.
Someone please just give me the answer.