I AM A PIECE OF SHIT

[andyfukpunk]

i m ade a really big fucking mistake based on faulty assumptions, the first of its sort ever, and i kept it a secret out of complete and utter cowardice. its been destroying me ever since, but a coaward i've remained.

i probably lost the most important person in my life due to it. and i would do anything to take it back.

i feel just about 100% dead inside right now, and i wish there was something or anything i could do to right my wrong, but i know if there is, i just hope 4-5 years isnt flushed down the toilet, because if so, one of the most important chunks of my life, experiences, and wonderful times, will just be...gone.

i woudl do anything to change the past, and sometimes i wish i didnt let my easily imbalanced insecurities get the best of me, but in this case, i did ever so breifly (about 10 minutes).

but wnough explanation. i fucked up. i hope to hell its not a birdge thats been burnt, because that bridge was more important than anything to me in the world. i don't know if it's aware of that.

i'm sorry for being such an emotional, impulsive, compassionate piece of shit.

i'm sorry.

i hope this isnt the end.