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So this is the first time I've taken a study drug aside from the usual sugar, caffeine, taurine, guarana, and b12. I can honestly say, the time flew by way too quickly, a nice 3 hours nonstop. It wasn't like I was idling the time away either; when Adderall kicked in, I just studied and wanted to do it fast too. However, my dexterity basically stayed the same, which was evident from my shietty penmenship as my hand tried to keep up with my mind. I did get through a lot of work, but not enough.
When I stopped studying, I realized how easily I got distracted. It wasn't like I wasn't paying attention to a particular thing, it was more like there was too many things I needed to pay attention to. I started thinking about if I should have a nice frozen desert and if I had the stomach for it. Then I planned on the route to take to the soft serve machine after relieving myself of my dishes when I realized the soft serve was unavailable for the night. I planned my time for the coming day and realized the girl that walked in with me was looking at me from across the room as I ate my sangwich. But she quickly cast down her eyes when I locked eye contact. She was pretty cute too, probably a freshman to be eating at the dining commons. Well, I didn't look that bad tonight. Although I had a scruff under my chin, having not shaven for 5 days since I got this huge cut on my face from the last time I shaved and I wanted it to heal properly. I looked somewhat ridiculous with a pair of Oakleys hanging down the collar of my shirt at 20 til midnight; I had worn it biking to school when the sun was still out. Anyway, yes, my mind wandered on everything.
I stopped studying after 3 hours and went to the dining commons, although I didn't have an appetite, due to the side effects of the drugs, I knew I was hungry because I haven't had dinner yet. Maybe the DC just sucks with cooking, which is not uncommon, but it seems like food just doesn't taste as good. Water has a disgusting taste, is that possible? Well, it is arrowhead, and I've always hated it, but it is just so blatantly non-refreshing this time around. Anyway, when I started eating, I couldn't really stop, I went through 2 entrees and a side in about 10 minutes. I didn't feel full, but I knew I should stop, so I did. I usually don't eat a lot, and this was bordering the limit of what I usually consume.
Leaving the DC, I contemplated whether I should go home and be distracted from work or go to the 24/7 study room, which is the opposite direction of home. I weighted the cost of each and took off for my apartment, 2 miles north of the campus. Biking back, I realized how slow my body is; in comparison with how fast my thoughts and ideas were going through my head, my body was just slow to react.
In comparison to energy drinks and caffeine, this is way better. Its been about 5 hours, and I'm still wired, David said it lasts about 6, but it might last longer for me since I have a sensitivity to drugs. Not only does this last longer, I don't get the side effects I usually get from energy drinks. I have a low caffeine metabolism, so it really fucks up my heart and my breathing. What i do have to worry about is abusing Adderall; I'm afraid if I take too much, my own production of serotonin or dopamine (or whatever the fuck Adderall simulates) will go down, so that I kinda develope into ADD. But I'm going to take it sparingly especially at 10 dollars per 1 pill of 20 milligrams.
okay, I think I wrote enough
I think I'll get a lot of TLDRs, but whatever, I rarely write in this thing these days and this entry is basically a brain fart, well a distraction I spent too much time on.
When I stopped studying, I realized how easily I got distracted. It wasn't like I wasn't paying attention to a particular thing, it was more like there was too many things I needed to pay attention to. I started thinking about if I should have a nice frozen desert and if I had the stomach for it. Then I planned on the route to take to the soft serve machine after relieving myself of my dishes when I realized the soft serve was unavailable for the night. I planned my time for the coming day and realized the girl that walked in with me was looking at me from across the room as I ate my sangwich. But she quickly cast down her eyes when I locked eye contact. She was pretty cute too, probably a freshman to be eating at the dining commons. Well, I didn't look that bad tonight. Although I had a scruff under my chin, having not shaven for 5 days since I got this huge cut on my face from the last time I shaved and I wanted it to heal properly. I looked somewhat ridiculous with a pair of Oakleys hanging down the collar of my shirt at 20 til midnight; I had worn it biking to school when the sun was still out. Anyway, yes, my mind wandered on everything.
I stopped studying after 3 hours and went to the dining commons, although I didn't have an appetite, due to the side effects of the drugs, I knew I was hungry because I haven't had dinner yet. Maybe the DC just sucks with cooking, which is not uncommon, but it seems like food just doesn't taste as good. Water has a disgusting taste, is that possible? Well, it is arrowhead, and I've always hated it, but it is just so blatantly non-refreshing this time around. Anyway, when I started eating, I couldn't really stop, I went through 2 entrees and a side in about 10 minutes. I didn't feel full, but I knew I should stop, so I did. I usually don't eat a lot, and this was bordering the limit of what I usually consume.
Leaving the DC, I contemplated whether I should go home and be distracted from work or go to the 24/7 study room, which is the opposite direction of home. I weighted the cost of each and took off for my apartment, 2 miles north of the campus. Biking back, I realized how slow my body is; in comparison with how fast my thoughts and ideas were going through my head, my body was just slow to react.
In comparison to energy drinks and caffeine, this is way better. Its been about 5 hours, and I'm still wired, David said it lasts about 6, but it might last longer for me since I have a sensitivity to drugs. Not only does this last longer, I don't get the side effects I usually get from energy drinks. I have a low caffeine metabolism, so it really fucks up my heart and my breathing. What i do have to worry about is abusing Adderall; I'm afraid if I take too much, my own production of serotonin or dopamine (or whatever the fuck Adderall simulates) will go down, so that I kinda develope into ADD. But I'm going to take it sparingly especially at 10 dollars per 1 pill of 20 milligrams.
okay, I think I wrote enough
I think I'll get a lot of TLDRs, but whatever, I rarely write in this thing these days and this entry is basically a brain fart, well a distraction I spent too much time on.