Jan 01, 2007 08:55
*DISCLAIMER: I AM DRUNK. I STAND BY WHAT I SAY, NEVERTHELESS. IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT, TOUGH BEANS - GO CHECK YOUR FACEBOOK*
I am so sick and tired of girls, women, whatever saying to me that they only want to be friends as their excuse for not even wanting to go on a date with me, heaven forbid getting into something more than that with me. Just friends? Come on, come up with something a little more original, or at least something a little less nerve racking. Maybe like "you have really bad BO, or you're a communist, or you're not a communist.....ANYTHING LIKE THAT!!! Just give me something that I can at least work with to change myself. I mean, fuck if I care about changing myself for you.....that, I can stomach....sort of. But at least give me some sort of starting point for me to better myself for the NEXT girl to come along so I can be closer to "WHAT SHE WANTS". I've said this before: I'm through with dating, or even trying to pick up. I don't want a relationship anymore. I just want to be happy on my own terms. And there is NO WAY that I can be happy on my own terms while hooked up with anyone else....tonight went a long way to convincing me of that. "I just want friends"....oh! the riches i'd have for every time i've been told that......well, i'd probably have a couple of bucks....which is still a lot of times, considering that I don't exactly just THROW my heart out there for a girl that I'm really crushing on. It takes a lot of stones for me to get that kind of nerve up, surprisingly. I mean, yeah, I'm a pretty sociable guy with everyone, but when I find that special girl that just makes me kinda burn up in the throat in those few agonizing seconds between when I ask her out and her response.....damn, thats it. And almost EVERY SINGLE time i put my heart out there i'm shot down................It just lead me to these 2 conclusions on the way to frat house:
1. Chivalry is dead, and women fucking abused, killed, and massacred it.
2. Treat a woman with respect. Top 5 on my Biggest Mistakes list. Treat them no different than anyone else. Just like one of the guys....any room that I give a woman, she seems to take supreme advantage of, and then claims that I'm just not what she's looking for. WELL FUCK! WHAT DO YOU FUCKING WANT FROM ME THEN???? TELL ME GOD DAMMIT!
TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!