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Well that was depressing.
Tonight's Valedictory dinner just made me feel even less a part of college than ever before. I'm clearly not a college person, and I just feel like a weight would be off my shoulders if I were to leave. But then I remember all the reasons I joined college in the first place. I don't know what to do, I can't decide which is the lesser of two evils.
Pros of living at college:
* Being a resident choir member - if I was non-resident it would be ridiculously hard to get to and from rehearsals, performances, group dinners etc.
* Ease of getting to and from uni
* Getting to live away from my parents, organise my own schedule, etc.
* College network and fast internet
* More work opportunities, commuting in general is easier.
Cons of living at college:
* NOISE
* Often feel lonely, much less friends than last year (doubt this will get better if leaving college anyway)
* Sometimes feel part of a hostile environment
* Don't feel part of the community... feel as though I'm missing out on main advantages of college life.
What moving out would mean:
* Having to travel by bus to uni every day, not to mention choir rehearsals if I remained a member
* Possibly quitting choir which has been the main good thing about this year even though it might not feel like it at the moment
* Cheaper for my parents
* Not being able to go out or stay out late even if I wanted to because of travel concerns
* Not as much freedom to be on the internet all the time like I am at college, which is more of a social life than I have in real life, really.
I just don't know anymore. I could get a sharehouse or something in the city, but it would have to be with someone(s) I really get along with and preferably already know. I'd also have to get a job (still no luck on this front) since my parents have really forked up enough for me already, and not to mention having to, god forbid, provide/make my own food.
Tonight's Valedictory dinner just made me feel even less a part of college than ever before. I'm clearly not a college person, and I just feel like a weight would be off my shoulders if I were to leave. But then I remember all the reasons I joined college in the first place. I don't know what to do, I can't decide which is the lesser of two evils.
Pros of living at college:
* Being a resident choir member - if I was non-resident it would be ridiculously hard to get to and from rehearsals, performances, group dinners etc.
* Ease of getting to and from uni
* Getting to live away from my parents, organise my own schedule, etc.
* College network and fast internet
* More work opportunities, commuting in general is easier.
Cons of living at college:
* NOISE
* Often feel lonely, much less friends than last year (doubt this will get better if leaving college anyway)
* Sometimes feel part of a hostile environment
* Don't feel part of the community... feel as though I'm missing out on main advantages of college life.
What moving out would mean:
* Having to travel by bus to uni every day, not to mention choir rehearsals if I remained a member
* Possibly quitting choir which has been the main good thing about this year even though it might not feel like it at the moment
* Cheaper for my parents
* Not being able to go out or stay out late even if I wanted to because of travel concerns
* Not as much freedom to be on the internet all the time like I am at college, which is more of a social life than I have in real life, really.
I just don't know anymore. I could get a sharehouse or something in the city, but it would have to be with someone(s) I really get along with and preferably already know. I'd also have to get a job (still no luck on this front) since my parents have really forked up enough for me already, and not to mention having to, god forbid, provide/make my own food.