yup...
wow. is it just me or.. i've seemed to notice to be very insecure about myself....i wish i weren't so much but it's not really my fault, i mean just things that people say to me really i dont know .. make me think twice and sometimes its a really bad thing, but i guess it really widens my horizon on my view of that one specific person and who they really are, and what they are capable of doing...although they may deny everything that they're saying. i mean its great to be honest and upfront but i guess sometimes its hard to handle right? perhaps i just think too much. but really its not my own doing. there are always possibilities RIGHT? i mean...its always hard to trust someone if they give off hints that they may just betray your trust. its a bad feeling. not good at all. or maybe i should just put more trust in other people...but yet again thats one of the hardest things for me to do....to have trust in others because i've seemed to have lost so much trust in almost everyone because of experiences, i guess. i dont kno :( just makes me sad wht people are really capable of doing, or does to "betray" someone... well perhaps betray is too strong of a word but that is basically what i mean....