err.
as i take a look at myself and i analyse, i realize i should have more faith and have more trust in the people i know and love =] i should give my trust and feel the security and know i will not be betrayed...do i believe? perhaps,...i find it so hard to give my trust due to my insecurities. i learn its hard for me to trust people and it's hard for me to open up....eww. i'm such a looser. it takes so much just for me to really reveal how i feel to the world =(. i understand that i should really have some trust in the people that surround me, but i am more or less a secretive person am i not? i keep a lot of my thoughts to myself and especially my feelings. so everything seems to be bottled up inside of me which is true.
i'm sorry that i lack this trust, but i'm learning to have more faith and trust in people. I hope to be forgiven, its just the way i am. i find difficulty in placing my trust in other people other than myself.