I dunno
My life is so nuts right now, I will do anything to make it all just go away. I want things to be officially over. I feel like my life is a soap opera and I just want to just take it off the channels...but i can't..and yu can't excape life, i tried it doesn't work. Believe me, I went to Florida, all the way from Michigan, it doesn't work.
Ryan and I broke up..Twice actually. First time, i took him back like three days later...the second time...I said we have to stay friends; we don't work. So, we broke up but we hung out at his friend's house, who happened to think i was hot, and just breaking up with ryan, i was ready to get back on the field, so when Ryan asked me if I thought his friend was hot, I didn't lie. So ryan then freakishly works his way and tries to actually get me and his friend together..I know weird..but his friend was interested but didnt want Ryan to get uncomfortable...yadda yadda, but Ryan pushed and pryed....so his friend calls me, and we actually have a lot in common and we really like each other..but he is testing the waters because ryan and i had a long relationship...more blah blah blah...so i coax him, tell him it's fine..and then everything is fixed...then ryan tries to get me to hang out with him..i say yes thinking everything is good, but then I re-think..even though its just as friends....this guy didn't know about me BECAUSE of ryan, then I am going to go disprove what I said by hanging out with him...man i am a fool..so i try and explain it to ryan that I dont want to jeopordize me and his friend's potential thing..and he doesn't understand it..but I dont want to ruin a good thing, especially since it's a good step towards something that looks really good...and plus i kind of want to cut some things off with ryan, i dont want to be as close, especially when ppl say they thought we were still together...that gets annoying... i just want to be myself and be happy...why can't I do that anymore without road blocks? I used to be able to, but now everything is a mess.
I just want to be happy. i want everything to go right, i am nervous what is going to happen.
Ryan and I broke up..Twice actually. First time, i took him back like three days later...the second time...I said we have to stay friends; we don't work. So, we broke up but we hung out at his friend's house, who happened to think i was hot, and just breaking up with ryan, i was ready to get back on the field, so when Ryan asked me if I thought his friend was hot, I didn't lie. So ryan then freakishly works his way and tries to actually get me and his friend together..I know weird..but his friend was interested but didnt want Ryan to get uncomfortable...yadda yadda, but Ryan pushed and pryed....so his friend calls me, and we actually have a lot in common and we really like each other..but he is testing the waters because ryan and i had a long relationship...more blah blah blah...so i coax him, tell him it's fine..and then everything is fixed...then ryan tries to get me to hang out with him..i say yes thinking everything is good, but then I re-think..even though its just as friends....this guy didn't know about me BECAUSE of ryan, then I am going to go disprove what I said by hanging out with him...man i am a fool..so i try and explain it to ryan that I dont want to jeopordize me and his friend's potential thing..and he doesn't understand it..but I dont want to ruin a good thing, especially since it's a good step towards something that looks really good...and plus i kind of want to cut some things off with ryan, i dont want to be as close, especially when ppl say they thought we were still together...that gets annoying... i just want to be myself and be happy...why can't I do that anymore without road blocks? I used to be able to, but now everything is a mess.
I just want to be happy. i want everything to go right, i am nervous what is going to happen.