Does it matter?...
does it matter what i think?..what i say?...how i act?...or what i do?...for some reason it doesnt seem like that it matters at all..have you ever felt empty inside to the point you feel like you are going to throw up, and your fist clench together tighter and tighter with sweat, becoming cold...the room begins to breathe and the panic hits...tears have run down my face for the past hour because im worn out..stressed to the max..whatever it may be that is causeing it..which is lonlieness...im lonely, i feel like there isnt anyone around besides myself right now...im fending for me and me only, no one else is there to protect me, hold me, tell me the TRUTH...i cant believe that all this happened with in matter of minutes...the feelings came and never left...why?..i dont know....but im not feeling strong enough to carry on myself...i feel weak and deprived of something i need...LOVE....DAMNIT!! CANT YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?? WHY MUST YOU LIE!....WHY MUST YOU BE LAZY?...CANT YOU UNDERSTAND I TRIED?..WHY DONT YOU TRY SOMETIME?...MAYBE THINGS MIGHT GET BETTER...i dont procrastinate, i say, then i do..you should take my advice and act...stop feeling sorry for yourself and me and worry about your own ass not mine...i can handle it with out the knuckles...