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well, here's my thoughts and an update for all three of you that read this :)
moving soon, and not exactly to where i expected, but God provides. I signed a lease with the roomate i'm with for another apartment... and i started having regrets about it... i looked at jonny a couple of times and was just like i dont know.... i feel like i can't live with her... but i guess it's too late since we've signed another lease. i tried to just suck it up, and hey, she pays her bills and isnt a complete slob by any means, so i figured it would just have to do. i had a few friends tell me i should try to get out of it... but i just said i didnt think it was possible. miss marie told me that i should come live with her and jake. muwah.
you can imagine my suprise when she came to me last week and told me she couldnt live with me for the next year, and was working with the people we signed a lease with to get out of it. phew! there a lot bigger and messier story going on there... but i'll spare you.
as it turns out, with all the stress-a-mess student loan stuff, i doubt i'd be able to afford that kind of rent, or at least want to, for so long! so i'll be living with marie and jake through the winter at least, then hoping to just get my own apartment. maybe if i'm lucky jonny will marry me when i'm done and then we can get our own place.... haha. no pressure. just saying. do or die!
the loans have just been a mess because i was afraid i couldnt get all i needed, then i did, then i didnt, then i did.. then it was like ahhh no... again... but meh. God knows his little girls feelings. he knows i can't keep doing what i'm doing. he knows the pain i go through just walking into that building, and i dont believe it's his plan to keep me there.
in fact, i'm quitting early so i can move, be with my family, birth family, and jonny's familly, before school starts. it will be nice to wind down a little before starting school.
i realize that i will have my own problems and challenges during the next year at school, it wont magically be perfect, but i trust that it's what i need to do. i'm doing something for me and i'll share it with Jesus too.
anyways, this week i havent had any mental break downs at work like last week... eeek... i think i'll be okay.
it'll all work out.
moving soon, and not exactly to where i expected, but God provides. I signed a lease with the roomate i'm with for another apartment... and i started having regrets about it... i looked at jonny a couple of times and was just like i dont know.... i feel like i can't live with her... but i guess it's too late since we've signed another lease. i tried to just suck it up, and hey, she pays her bills and isnt a complete slob by any means, so i figured it would just have to do. i had a few friends tell me i should try to get out of it... but i just said i didnt think it was possible. miss marie told me that i should come live with her and jake. muwah.
you can imagine my suprise when she came to me last week and told me she couldnt live with me for the next year, and was working with the people we signed a lease with to get out of it. phew! there a lot bigger and messier story going on there... but i'll spare you.
as it turns out, with all the stress-a-mess student loan stuff, i doubt i'd be able to afford that kind of rent, or at least want to, for so long! so i'll be living with marie and jake through the winter at least, then hoping to just get my own apartment. maybe if i'm lucky jonny will marry me when i'm done and then we can get our own place.... haha. no pressure. just saying. do or die!
the loans have just been a mess because i was afraid i couldnt get all i needed, then i did, then i didnt, then i did.. then it was like ahhh no... again... but meh. God knows his little girls feelings. he knows i can't keep doing what i'm doing. he knows the pain i go through just walking into that building, and i dont believe it's his plan to keep me there.
in fact, i'm quitting early so i can move, be with my family, birth family, and jonny's familly, before school starts. it will be nice to wind down a little before starting school.
i realize that i will have my own problems and challenges during the next year at school, it wont magically be perfect, but i trust that it's what i need to do. i'm doing something for me and i'll share it with Jesus too.
anyways, this week i havent had any mental break downs at work like last week... eeek... i think i'll be okay.
it'll all work out.