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A few random thoughts before I start studying for my final that I have in biomedical ethics tomorrow.
I called my friend Dan today. It was weird. I don’t know how to explain it. Dan is one of my best guy friends ever. Actually just one of my best friends ever. We can be so honest with each other. He knows almost everything about me. Well I mean all the stuff that is appropriate for a girl to tell just guy friend. Anyways. When I got off the phone today I got the strangest feeling that I was acting like a girlfriend to him. That is not okay, seeing as how he is the boyfriend of my good friend Danielle. Even if that weren’t the case it would not be okay. It left me feeling very weird. So after that, what is the first thing that goes through my head? I need to call Dan and tell him what I felt. AHHHH it was horrible. Now I’m scared to call him. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to bake off from my friend. I know if I did he would think he did something wrong, but I don’t want to feel like I need to tell him thing…but when I don’t he gets sad. Its hard, but he is such a great friend…
Also. I was thinking in the shower tonight about grades. I was wishing that there were some way they could grade me based on my common sense. I have a very good amount of it I think. I also tend to think that I am more book smart then I actually am. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing. Then I got to thinking, would I rather be really book smart and not so much common sense smart or the other way around like I already am. Then I got sad. Sad cause I relieved I was just common. I had the same sense that is common among people. Isn’t that a sad thought? I’m just a common average smart girl. I need to excel in something…. but I fear that I don’t.
Some people think that I do in different areas, but I think I just fake it well.
I’m just an average girl. Maybe a little louder then the average, maybe a little more outgoing, maybe even a little more colorful from tattoos, but in all honestly I’m just an average girl.
I wish this thought made me happy and content…but I really want to be extraordinary at…. Something.
I called my friend Dan today. It was weird. I don’t know how to explain it. Dan is one of my best guy friends ever. Actually just one of my best friends ever. We can be so honest with each other. He knows almost everything about me. Well I mean all the stuff that is appropriate for a girl to tell just guy friend. Anyways. When I got off the phone today I got the strangest feeling that I was acting like a girlfriend to him. That is not okay, seeing as how he is the boyfriend of my good friend Danielle. Even if that weren’t the case it would not be okay. It left me feeling very weird. So after that, what is the first thing that goes through my head? I need to call Dan and tell him what I felt. AHHHH it was horrible. Now I’m scared to call him. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to bake off from my friend. I know if I did he would think he did something wrong, but I don’t want to feel like I need to tell him thing…but when I don’t he gets sad. Its hard, but he is such a great friend…
Also. I was thinking in the shower tonight about grades. I was wishing that there were some way they could grade me based on my common sense. I have a very good amount of it I think. I also tend to think that I am more book smart then I actually am. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing. Then I got to thinking, would I rather be really book smart and not so much common sense smart or the other way around like I already am. Then I got sad. Sad cause I relieved I was just common. I had the same sense that is common among people. Isn’t that a sad thought? I’m just a common average smart girl. I need to excel in something…. but I fear that I don’t.
Some people think that I do in different areas, but I think I just fake it well.
I’m just an average girl. Maybe a little louder then the average, maybe a little more outgoing, maybe even a little more colorful from tattoos, but in all honestly I’m just an average girl.
I wish this thought made me happy and content…but I really want to be extraordinary at…. Something.