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Okay, Jessica just left. :( She could only stay one night cause she has to finish her report. Then, if she is done, she might be able to come back. I told her to call me when she is.
Okay, so, After school, we dropped by her house to get her clothes and I guess her parents were talking to her about her progress report and how she needs to do her report. So they were being rude to her about it and Jessica looked like she was going to cry and I just wanted to go up to her and hug her and tell her that it will be okay as soon as she gets to my house. But, since her parents dont know about us.. or her being gay, even.. I couldn't.
We finally arrive at my house. I was kind of tired and so was she so we took a nap together. Well, I fell asleep... She just cuddled me. Then, I jerked awake and sat up, and instantly wanted to know what the time was for some unknown reason but she calmed me down and I kissed her alittle bit. Then, we decided to play Halo 2 for alittle while. Then, we went right back upstairs to cuddle some more... It was calming and nice.
After a few hours or so, we decided to go back downstairs and we talked to my dad. My dad seemed interested in Jessica and was asking about her family and throwing in theories I've never heard from him before, saying how parents should accept their kids for who they are and men and women should be equal in our society, rather than all that Female Inferiority and Male Puriority junk. My dad seemed to be happy with us. It was nice.. I never thought he would ever accept a girlfriend before.
Then.. I noticed something on Jessica's neck and started to laugh... It was a mark I accidently left her.. I had to show her in the mirror and she was like "OH SHIT!" and started to laugh and I told her it was okay cause it looked like a scratch and we both laughed and I told her I was sorry because, I didn't really mean to leave one..
Then, we both were tired again and decided to go to bed.
She told me I was twitching in my dreams and I think I jerked awake a couple of times... I don't know, I was just having weird dreams. One was where I was actually being electrocuted and I can actually feel my brain squeezing in and my body convulsing.. and then there was one where a knife went through a man's eye and blood gushed everywhere. I woke up all frightened but immediatly felt relieved because I was in Jessica's arms.
We layed with each other this morning for a long time... We kissed every so often.. and... and then... Jessica whispers to me... She whispers "I love you".. and I didn't know what to say or do then... I mean, was it to soon? I got scared.. I dont want it to be like my last relationship... I don't want to be betrayed again... So it was quiet... And I didn't know if I should say it back or not... Until I asked her if she meant it..
She said "Yeah...Yeah, I do" and I pulled her closer to me and told her I loved her too and I cried alittle and so did she as she buried her face into my chest. I held her tightly and smoothed her.
Is it too soon?
This is right, right? I hope so. I should be.
Okay, so, After school, we dropped by her house to get her clothes and I guess her parents were talking to her about her progress report and how she needs to do her report. So they were being rude to her about it and Jessica looked like she was going to cry and I just wanted to go up to her and hug her and tell her that it will be okay as soon as she gets to my house. But, since her parents dont know about us.. or her being gay, even.. I couldn't.
We finally arrive at my house. I was kind of tired and so was she so we took a nap together. Well, I fell asleep... She just cuddled me. Then, I jerked awake and sat up, and instantly wanted to know what the time was for some unknown reason but she calmed me down and I kissed her alittle bit. Then, we decided to play Halo 2 for alittle while. Then, we went right back upstairs to cuddle some more... It was calming and nice.
After a few hours or so, we decided to go back downstairs and we talked to my dad. My dad seemed interested in Jessica and was asking about her family and throwing in theories I've never heard from him before, saying how parents should accept their kids for who they are and men and women should be equal in our society, rather than all that Female Inferiority and Male Puriority junk. My dad seemed to be happy with us. It was nice.. I never thought he would ever accept a girlfriend before.
Then.. I noticed something on Jessica's neck and started to laugh... It was a mark I accidently left her.. I had to show her in the mirror and she was like "OH SHIT!" and started to laugh and I told her it was okay cause it looked like a scratch and we both laughed and I told her I was sorry because, I didn't really mean to leave one..
Then, we both were tired again and decided to go to bed.
She told me I was twitching in my dreams and I think I jerked awake a couple of times... I don't know, I was just having weird dreams. One was where I was actually being electrocuted and I can actually feel my brain squeezing in and my body convulsing.. and then there was one where a knife went through a man's eye and blood gushed everywhere. I woke up all frightened but immediatly felt relieved because I was in Jessica's arms.
We layed with each other this morning for a long time... We kissed every so often.. and... and then... Jessica whispers to me... She whispers "I love you".. and I didn't know what to say or do then... I mean, was it to soon? I got scared.. I dont want it to be like my last relationship... I don't want to be betrayed again... So it was quiet... And I didn't know if I should say it back or not... Until I asked her if she meant it..
She said "Yeah...Yeah, I do" and I pulled her closer to me and told her I loved her too and I cried alittle and so did she as she buried her face into my chest. I held her tightly and smoothed her.
Is it too soon?
This is right, right? I hope so. I should be.