The Cessation of the Creator
I found out today that my biological father died sometime last week.
I never met him.
I had always planned to, but never did.
And now there is no more chance. The results of procrastination....
But instead of feeling sorry or regretting I never met him, instead I regret the fact that he was unable to know me or what I've become.
But, maybe he knows. If there is something after this existence.
Despite this knowledge, nothing in my life has changed. He is dead. Oh well. Such is life. I assume if my Step-dad* were to die, my reaction might be a little different. But I feel nothing for the death of a person I didn't know. People die all the time. Such is life.
*I refer to him as step-dad here only for the purpose of clarification. For all intents and purposes, he is my real dad. If I was never told otherwise, I wouldn't have known the difference as my parents have been married since shortly after I was born.
I'll leave this public.
I never met him.
I had always planned to, but never did.
And now there is no more chance. The results of procrastination....
But instead of feeling sorry or regretting I never met him, instead I regret the fact that he was unable to know me or what I've become.
But, maybe he knows. If there is something after this existence.
Despite this knowledge, nothing in my life has changed. He is dead. Oh well. Such is life. I assume if my Step-dad* were to die, my reaction might be a little different. But I feel nothing for the death of a person I didn't know. People die all the time. Such is life.
*I refer to him as step-dad here only for the purpose of clarification. For all intents and purposes, he is my real dad. If I was never told otherwise, I wouldn't have known the difference as my parents have been married since shortly after I was born.
I'll leave this public.