whoa i can't believe this
ok so i'm sitting here listening to a song by the "Black lipstick" i'm checking them out because there number five on filter magazine's top five pick. Well more to the point the reason that i'm listening to the song is because its an ode to Bob fosse, which is tylers late uncle whom was a famous broadway choreographer. I find this just hours after i purchase tickets to fly around the fricken world with the main goal of well seeing his niece whom i have been graced in life with the chance to fall in love with. i have never done anything even remotely like this or hell even this randomly in my life i mean i decided that i was going to go in a friday night drunken stuper, well actually it was an excelent night because i was with spike, ian, andre, tika, dougney, and kristen. which a few of those people are the most important people in my life and i love them more then anything, while spike and i were in a rather deep conversation early in the night about the people that we truely care about and such. i realized that i need to embrace the people that are important to me in my life because by not doing so i am in no way living my life to my fullest, and if i keep this shroud around my heart that i have been lately that i will never be happy with my life. ok yes i may open myself up for being hurt but the pain that may or may not derive from loving freely in no way compares to the feeling of love. so what am i so scared of? i have to ask myself why have i been so jaded in my recent life? why is it scary as all hell to fly across the world to see someone that i love? these are questions that i plan on exploring in my meditation sessions i will update here the more i explore here. but for now my focus is on not shrouding my emotions for fear of something because well fear should not be an emotion that i explore it is too close to hate, and anger. which both are emotions that i am trying to eradicate from my life.
wow so back to my usual posting moods ok so yea i'm going to england!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can't fucking believe how awesome that is going to be, i really want to go too: paris, berlin, london, the place where they filmed the prisoner, i would love to go somewhere were in africa, greace, and spain, and italy are also places that i would love to visit, now i know that all that may not be possible but i would still love to at least try. who knows i may find someplace that i love so much that i won't want to come back. ;)
how last moment can i get i fucking purchase the tickets like 30days before i go to europe for a fricken month and i only decided that i wanted to go saturday morning, well more definatevly sunday.
i don't usually do things this spontaniously.
i still have to get my passport!!!!
and i need to get laugage and shit.
whoa i have no time, ahhhh time to get stressed out!!!! i love doing things in at the last moment!!
wow so back to my usual posting moods ok so yea i'm going to england!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can't fucking believe how awesome that is going to be, i really want to go too: paris, berlin, london, the place where they filmed the prisoner, i would love to go somewhere were in africa, greace, and spain, and italy are also places that i would love to visit, now i know that all that may not be possible but i would still love to at least try. who knows i may find someplace that i love so much that i won't want to come back. ;)
how last moment can i get i fucking purchase the tickets like 30days before i go to europe for a fricken month and i only decided that i wanted to go saturday morning, well more definatevly sunday.
i don't usually do things this spontaniously.
i still have to get my passport!!!!
and i need to get laugage and shit.
whoa i have no time, ahhhh time to get stressed out!!!! i love doing things in at the last moment!!