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First of all, I've been drinking too much. That will stop as of the New Year, or maybe even as of today. I am extremely excited to be working through New Years Eve, because I have no plans nor do I care to make any.
So with this next month I will start to put my life back together. I'll finally be able to transfer after this semester. Why on earth did that take me so damn long? Like most people I have negative things and positive things to deal with right now. I'm not sure how to approach any of them really.
-Best friend moving way too far away. She gets me like no one else. But I may get a free trip to Hawaii in January out of it.
-Other friends slowly drifting away.
-I am going back to school after taking a semester off.
-I like Mike.
-I am concerned for my cousins' well being. Also my other half. We are far too much alike and I need to see her doing better than she is.
-I hate most of the people I work with. However, it is just a job. I regret making friends with the most of them even though it makes work more fun. I hate having my personal life involved with any of theirs. I will begin to remove myself starting today.
-I don't like being alone. I never had a problem with this till recently.
-I am sorry to the people that I have hurt. I am probably better off not even in your life, with the exception of a few people. I try to be a good person; I fail at times. I disappoint myself time and time again. I'm moving on from past mistakes.
-My relationship with my parents is at its best right now. Also the relationship with my brother is finally blossoming into something more than just being related.
-What's to happen to Eric? He's such a fun person.
-I like my living arrangements, but am starting to wonder about what I am doing there.
-I'm done with my "phase".
-More boring stuff. Etc.
I'm really old now... but actually, I just feel like that. Shit needs to start getting done. I expect major changes to happen by the time I turn 24. And that's up to me. I hate self reflection. I do it entirely too much. I feel like such a loser lately.
So with this next month I will start to put my life back together. I'll finally be able to transfer after this semester. Why on earth did that take me so damn long? Like most people I have negative things and positive things to deal with right now. I'm not sure how to approach any of them really.
-Best friend moving way too far away. She gets me like no one else. But I may get a free trip to Hawaii in January out of it.
-Other friends slowly drifting away.
-I am going back to school after taking a semester off.
-I like Mike.
-I am concerned for my cousins' well being. Also my other half. We are far too much alike and I need to see her doing better than she is.
-I hate most of the people I work with. However, it is just a job. I regret making friends with the most of them even though it makes work more fun. I hate having my personal life involved with any of theirs. I will begin to remove myself starting today.
-I don't like being alone. I never had a problem with this till recently.
-I am sorry to the people that I have hurt. I am probably better off not even in your life, with the exception of a few people. I try to be a good person; I fail at times. I disappoint myself time and time again. I'm moving on from past mistakes.
-My relationship with my parents is at its best right now. Also the relationship with my brother is finally blossoming into something more than just being related.
-What's to happen to Eric? He's such a fun person.
-I like my living arrangements, but am starting to wonder about what I am doing there.
-I'm done with my "phase".
-More boring stuff. Etc.
I'm really old now... but actually, I just feel like that. Shit needs to start getting done. I expect major changes to happen by the time I turn 24. And that's up to me. I hate self reflection. I do it entirely too much. I feel like such a loser lately.