trying to find a little security in a strange world
You know it's sad that the worst enemy you can ever have is your own brain. My problem is i have a very over imaginative brain, that surprisingly thinks very fast about the things i probably shouldn't say and thinks very slowly (way to slow) about the things i should, yeah like if someone was to say something to me, doesn't matter what good or bad, i always think of something that i could have said better back a day or so later. Then again i have found i really like the taste of my foot, i've become very accustom to putting my foot in my mouth, and of course the next day thinking of all the things i should have said instead. Have you ever thought about bad things happening to people, that you know will never happen? (now note i have never had or been in an accident or even really seen a really horrible one) a good example is, say i'm driving a long and i see a person on a bike, some how in my imagination i see that person fall into traffic and get hit (don't worry it doesn't happen) and don't get me wrong i would never ever want anyone in the world to get hurt. But some how my mind just jumps to the worst that could ever happen, and i see it happening. another one for ya, just so you think i am a little more crazy than i think i am :) now this doesn't happen when i drive, i guess because i feel in control, but if i am riding in a car and we are driving down the road, and someone pulls up to an intersection about to pass, some how i see that car hitting our car, yeah let me tell ya it's not to fun being the passenger sometimes...i'm actually working on that and now i don't freak out as bad. am i just sick? a little morbid perhaps? does anyone ever have anything like this ever happen to them? don't ask me why i'm talking about all this now, my imagination has been like this before i can even remember. i just felt like writing, and couldn't figure out how to put all these feelings into poem form, so here it is...just me...take it or leave it...