happy feelings welcome.
I need to go to therapy.....real real bad and when i get to therapy i am going to cry my god damn eyes out and beg for answer to why i am so fucked up i would love for a therapist to fix my problems and fucking put me on medication lots and lots of medication so i dont feel so shitty i have always struggled with myself but i dont ever think this much for a small chunk of time i realy thought i was going to be ok and i realy thought i had gotten over all of my insecurities but they snuck up on me and completely ate me alive dead serious my insecurties are destroyin me my doctor put me on lexapro and that made me feel a little better but i started taking more and more on days when i realy felt like i was going to freak the fuck out and now i only have four left and im scared to take them because im afraid he wont renew my perscription i realy dont know i mean i know there are so many more things going on in the world that should make me feel greatful but at times like these i just cant help but feel shitty