tears...

[andrew_perkins]

well again, they've been shed, I can't keep doing this. I need to stop. I'm on a path of self destruction. I'm all choked up can't speak, can't tell her, can't hold her. Kissed her but for no reason, it was empty, but not on my end. Her intrests ly with another. I should just learn my lesson. I am a sucker.... through and through. and I can't change that. Time to face the facts.

Why do I write when i'm sad, totally stupid. I need to write when i'm happy, then i'd never write. Is that right?