Memories - Thinking of the way things used to be.
A year ago, two, five... how many things have changed in the last two months. There has been so much friction, so much pain that even the closest friendships seem to be fading. A year ago, I was so close to someone, no one could tear us apart, the week, I considered walking away from her friendship. I don't understand how things could have turned out like this. I guess when people change, put up barriers, do things that are unlike them, are unduly influenced by people we don't know and just grow away from us; it's hard to find that person that we fell in Love with or became friends with.
It's hard to see the consequences of our actions because we are so blinded by something else, passion, love, happiness; I was like that for so long. I couldn't see past my own Love, the moments that I shared were so Happy, Passionate and Loving. My excuse was that I knew what I was doing, and I did. There wasn't enough trust or faith in me, ultimately that was nearly destroyed my friendship, my relationship. She was being told things that just hurt my friendship with her, things should have been much more simple, according to a mutual friend of mine, they weren't very supportive, but I have accepted and forgiven her. In the end, they made it a choice between them and me, and she chose them. I don't think she should have been made to choose, It wasn't fair to her or me, I don't know the motives of these people, but irony falls close to the tree and maybe these are the consequences of their actions. In a manner of speaking, she has as much to do with all that has been happening, she was forced to choose, and she picked this path for all of us.
I'll try do something that no one else has, support her and be there. I'm her friend, because I choose to.
Somewhere under all those changes, is a girl I met in red square so long ago, I have to try to find that girl again. I'm still the bag toting frat boy that she met and went to lunch with. Nothing changed in me, I have my friends as proof of that. They kept me in check, and even when I went against them, they never abandoned me. They might have disagreed, but all I had to do was reach out, and I'm closer to them because of it. My story has never changed, ask any of my friends, they still see the same boi.
We don't always see results of our actions, sometimes they have nothing to do with us, the lesson that I learned here is that no matter what we do, how little it is, there will always be a consequence, whether it be now, or down the line.
I found this song, reminds me of days long past... Boyz II Men - On Bended Knee.
It's hard to see the consequences of our actions because we are so blinded by something else, passion, love, happiness; I was like that for so long. I couldn't see past my own Love, the moments that I shared were so Happy, Passionate and Loving. My excuse was that I knew what I was doing, and I did. There wasn't enough trust or faith in me, ultimately that was nearly destroyed my friendship, my relationship. She was being told things that just hurt my friendship with her, things should have been much more simple, according to a mutual friend of mine, they weren't very supportive, but I have accepted and forgiven her. In the end, they made it a choice between them and me, and she chose them. I don't think she should have been made to choose, It wasn't fair to her or me, I don't know the motives of these people, but irony falls close to the tree and maybe these are the consequences of their actions. In a manner of speaking, she has as much to do with all that has been happening, she was forced to choose, and she picked this path for all of us.
I'll try do something that no one else has, support her and be there. I'm her friend, because I choose to.
Somewhere under all those changes, is a girl I met in red square so long ago, I have to try to find that girl again. I'm still the bag toting frat boy that she met and went to lunch with. Nothing changed in me, I have my friends as proof of that. They kept me in check, and even when I went against them, they never abandoned me. They might have disagreed, but all I had to do was reach out, and I'm closer to them because of it. My story has never changed, ask any of my friends, they still see the same boi.
We don't always see results of our actions, sometimes they have nothing to do with us, the lesson that I learned here is that no matter what we do, how little it is, there will always be a consequence, whether it be now, or down the line.
I found this song, reminds me of days long past... Boyz II Men - On Bended Knee.