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Sep 16, 2002 02:09

I live in a very odd little neighborhood. During the week and in the day time it appears very quaint and sweet, but as night falls and the weekend comes strange things start happening. Pretty much across the street from my house is a grade school. Since school has resumed, I have been waking up early, coffee, cigarette and newspaper, sitting on my porch, just watching. My favorite time of the day is when the parents come to drop off and pick up their kids. You see so many different relationships, you get the kids that run full force away from their parents, and those that hug them multiple times, really not wanting to leave. I love recess, you can see which kids are really going to make it, its crazy that you can even see that in kids, i suppose its proper parenting or something. There is a lot of shit going on there though, a lot of bullying, and kids have gotten far worse to each other than I ever recall them being.
Having my own children honestly frightens me. I don't know that I could be the kind of father I would like to be, and if I couldn't I really wouldn't want to rob a child of that. I think parenting is something that people don't put enough consideration into, and kids are just fucked up as a result, and these are our future you know.
There is this woman that lives across the street from me, I watch her too. I watch her watching the same things as me, and watching me also. She is always wearing the same thing, dressed head to toe in black, even on the hottest days of the year. She really makes me think. She takes she pride in the things that the rest of us seem to be annoyed at. Things like watering and cutting the grass. I love watching her water her grass, she does it so intensely as if she is actually trying to see it grow. I sometimes wonder where along the way the rest of us seemed to lose that.
I just got in from a long walk. I went to get a coffee, and there was this very typical white trash couple having this very loud argument outside, about intimate details that really no one should hear, let alone the entire neighborhood. I just don't understand some peoples lack of control, or humiliation really. There is an awful lot of late night arguments around here. Plus, punk ass teenagers thinking they are the shit causing all sorts of problems. Then your usual good old crimes, like car robberies (mine being one of them) and just a couple weeks ago we had our first homicide.
I have gotten very off track. I don't even remember why I was originally writing, I remember having a point in mind, but it seems to have escaped me, so you are left with a rambling mess of nothingness.
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